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i still dont understand the role jealousy plays in my life and i suppose i never will. its something that doesnt usually affect me and then when it does...its a fucking mess.
and i dont seem to get jealous about the things that matter. or in the way you might expect.
19 year old cute scene girl...jealousy. yes. because im getting older, NOT younger. i dont have piercings in my face any more and i dont care about being at all the coolest shows. the jealousy isnt found in the hundreds of comments she gets on myspace, or in the pictures of her with certain people...certainly not in the things she says or writes (because they are shallow and poorly executed). so where does the jealousy come from them?
the fear that there will always be someone
younger
cuter
newer
trendier
sweeter
and ill just be the old cow. its something every woman thinks about. when i was 19, i didnt worry about it. i was hot and awesome and desirable and i fucking knew it. how much difference can two years make? a TON. and now i have to deal with that twisting in my gut when i see her. she will always be right behind me. every where i go. doing the things ive already done and saying the things ive already said but in some way...shes better at it.
experience counts for nothing when there are tattooed "hawties" flaunting their inexperience as if its a selling point. i know i was JUST like her. and i know that i am being a bitter old lady.
so just to clarify:
this is about several girls. all of them.
and all the "older" boys that think they will get what they want from them. you wont. you are momentary to her. get it?
(and if she posts another bulletin about feeling old at shows...im fucking deleting her ass.)
this turned into a bitchfest..was not my intention.
on an entirely different topic, i need to get something off my chest. i start my new job next week ish. its at lois' natural market place. thats what the sign says. Lois'.
its wrong.
putting an apostrophe AFTER an s without adding another s means that its plural possessive. unless there are two women running that market and they are both named lois...its just possessive and it should be Lois's.
its a common misconception that when a word ends in the letter s and its possessive that you dont add another s. it drives me crazy. but i cant talk about it at work (obviously) which will be very hard.
i havent told the camera shop that im leaving yet. im feeling guilty this time.
and i dont seem to get jealous about the things that matter. or in the way you might expect.
19 year old cute scene girl...jealousy. yes. because im getting older, NOT younger. i dont have piercings in my face any more and i dont care about being at all the coolest shows. the jealousy isnt found in the hundreds of comments she gets on myspace, or in the pictures of her with certain people...certainly not in the things she says or writes (because they are shallow and poorly executed). so where does the jealousy come from them?
the fear that there will always be someone
younger
cuter
newer
trendier
sweeter
and ill just be the old cow. its something every woman thinks about. when i was 19, i didnt worry about it. i was hot and awesome and desirable and i fucking knew it. how much difference can two years make? a TON. and now i have to deal with that twisting in my gut when i see her. she will always be right behind me. every where i go. doing the things ive already done and saying the things ive already said but in some way...shes better at it.
experience counts for nothing when there are tattooed "hawties" flaunting their inexperience as if its a selling point. i know i was JUST like her. and i know that i am being a bitter old lady.
so just to clarify:
this is about several girls. all of them.
and all the "older" boys that think they will get what they want from them. you wont. you are momentary to her. get it?
(and if she posts another bulletin about feeling old at shows...im fucking deleting her ass.)
this turned into a bitchfest..was not my intention.
on an entirely different topic, i need to get something off my chest. i start my new job next week ish. its at lois' natural market place. thats what the sign says. Lois'.
its wrong.
putting an apostrophe AFTER an s without adding another s means that its plural possessive. unless there are two women running that market and they are both named lois...its just possessive and it should be Lois's.
its a common misconception that when a word ends in the letter s and its possessive that you dont add another s. it drives me crazy. but i cant talk about it at work (obviously) which will be very hard.
i havent told the camera shop that im leaving yet. im feeling guilty this time.