Welcome to the New Year!
Life is full of changes and surprises. I find it funny how things turn out.
I've been home for almost a month now. It is ridiculous.
But after the long turmoil of telling myself that no one should be involved with me and that all I do is ruin peoples' lives... I've finally let it go as that I've found myself ready to care about someone again.
I already found the said someone. His name is Kameron.
I woke up this morning and realized that I should not let this thing die. No matter how much I change, no matter what life throws at me. But I don't think I should depend on it like I once did. Even though keeping a journal is a good way for me to remember things. I used to put so much detail in this thing. I wonder if I am even capable of pouring myself out that much anymore.
But things are great on this end emotionally wise. I'm kind of hungry though so I may make me some ramen. Even though that involves moving, and you know how I feel about moving.
Or do you?
Maybe I shouldn't be so lazy.
*pauses for musical interlude*
I appreciate that I can associate music with other things.
This song is happy for me.
"I will be with you everywhere you go, every little thing you do. Our love is here to stay, even when the skies are gray... even when I'm away. I'll be with you.
Whatever happened to the rock n roll in your eyes? I know they're somewhere in you behind your veil of lies. Oh why do you hide them? Your rock n roll eyes, baby."
I've been home for almost a month now. It is ridiculous.
But after the long turmoil of telling myself that no one should be involved with me and that all I do is ruin peoples' lives... I've finally let it go as that I've found myself ready to care about someone again.
I already found the said someone. His name is Kameron.
I woke up this morning and realized that I should not let this thing die. No matter how much I change, no matter what life throws at me. But I don't think I should depend on it like I once did. Even though keeping a journal is a good way for me to remember things. I used to put so much detail in this thing. I wonder if I am even capable of pouring myself out that much anymore.
But things are great on this end emotionally wise. I'm kind of hungry though so I may make me some ramen. Even though that involves moving, and you know how I feel about moving.
Or do you?
Maybe I shouldn't be so lazy.
*pauses for musical interlude*
I appreciate that I can associate music with other things.
This song is happy for me.
"I will be with you everywhere you go, every little thing you do. Our love is here to stay, even when the skies are gray... even when I'm away. I'll be with you.
Whatever happened to the rock n roll in your eyes? I know they're somewhere in you behind your veil of lies. Oh why do you hide them? Your rock n roll eyes, baby."