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Haven't posted in a while because I hadn't thought of it but the reality of it is, things are mostly good? I had a few bad days wherein I was being swallowed by the dark side and drank it away, was sick but got better fast realizing how much I have to hold on to now - and work is the only forefront I have. Each time I threaten to go down, it's faster and faster that I get up and don't even get there. I like to think of it as a win but hope one day there isn't a need to even consider them wins as it'll be non-existent.
As usual, work is on an upward spiral. The Branch Manager and I continue to butt heads in a way that rivals the current Ukraine/Russia war, but we are all slowly adjusting to the fact she will not let up and let it go - so the staff continues to come to me, we deal with things in-house, and the rest goes to her. Even the adjusters and Directors.
I adopted my old system while in law for categorizing files, etc. and the tasks and so far it is not only exceeding my hopes in insurance than it did in law, but it's set me up for extreme success. I constantly learn new things at work and every day is a good day (well, mostly).
Ma and I are still close and she's learning too to accept me, and we praise the great days which are so vast even Ma has stated how much better I am and possibly, more than likely, am better than I ever have been, but our relationship has grown too. It will never be perfect but things are definitely better than I can remember.
Sunshine and I still see each other semi-regularly. We had a moment during Christmas where I lost my lid - the holidays are hard, and I don't believe he should be lying to that thing he is with, cheating, spending time with me, and continue on this way moreover I backed him into a corner at one point and he said he wasn't leaving her. I know he will eventually and it's not because of me: he has to - there is only so much time in life, and he can't spend it with someone he's clearly not in love with nor faithful to and it's legit not because of me, but as part of a reason not to. I did tell him next Christmas I am not spending it alone and if it isn't with him, it's without him permanently. He thinks those are just words and there is a lot of time to go - but it's almost February buddy, so, think about that.
Otherwise we are okay on most fronts and we are branching outside of our usual - we meet for lunch now too. Just lunch. Nothing else. This Friday we are doing Longo's pizza lunch and I can't wait, because it'll be nice to see him, but the pizza!!!! it's to DIE for and with the sauce?? mmmmm
I have gained a bit of weight - 15lbs. On me, that's a lot, but it's not compared to what I used to be. I don't want to compare my weight from when I was with Greggers but frankly, while I may be thinner now, I don't ever want to be that fat again. I am also getting too pale so the gym, when I have time, and tanning, is in order. It's just, when do I have the time? this week specifically I am at work every day at 7 a.m. and by the time I get home, I eat, and it's bed so I can do it again. I made a promise to myself this weekend I am hitting the gym on Saturday. I pay for it and I haven't used it since I broke my foot back in October.
In three weeks I am off to see Mr. and Mrs. Dreamy in St. Catharines. I love seeing Trish and her family - we are doing a winter hike which will DEFINITELY improve my exercise. I am bringing brie with pistachio covering, cranberry oat crackers, and salad.
My dad's naming ceremony for the library is tomorrow. I am looking forward solely to seeing my mother in person for a change - and I am going to be proud and try not to cry and embarrass anyone, but it'll be a hard day. Already I can see the wear and tear on my body coming, but I will come home right after tomorrow night and sleep it off for work the next day. My dad deserves this honor and he worked so very hard for that city...he SHOULD have this.
Life is moving along. Life is doing it's thing. I am glad I am on the positive side of seeing it for a change.