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I have an interview today. It's not with any form of law and I am super looking forward to it. It's at 2 p.m. I need this. Friday my foster brother came down and I had a good time with him at dinner. There is a lot that happened last weekend that I am not ready to get into, but, I will say that yesterday for the first time in a while I had time to reflect on what it is I need and want. And it turns out? I have absolutely no idea what that is.
Here's what I have learned: my soulmate, Will, means more to me than he realized. His partner, CJ, doesn't really care if I live or die. I mean that in a nice way. He's a nice person with a good heart and soul and treats me well but...I am not part of his overall plan. Heather? I couldn't care less anymore. Helena has been back from Greece two weeks and I had no idea. I decided maybe it's time for someone to miss me for once. I can't keep following up with everyone all the time. My parents love me. My foster family loves me. I am closer to Christopher though than Andrew. Frank and I are at an impasse of our own doing - and I am okay with that distance for now. I need to sell my car. I don't want to work in law anymore. I despise not having fake nails (I took them off over a week ago because I just didn't want to pay to fix them and now I am completely wishing I hadn't lol). That I may not be able to date Greg, but that HE is truly part of my heart. Do you know the whole weekend he called to check up on me? that's heart.
I went to this pool near my house that I didn't know existed, and there are trails everywhere. Will showed me it by accident when we went to pick up Chinese food Saturday night. Because I was alone and for various other reasons, Greg had me stick a note with my health card number and his contact information attached to my phone.
We split because I wanted him to grow up, learn responsibility, appreciate all I did for him, and be the man I know he can be. And it looks like he's doing just that.
I guess for now I am going to solidly attempt to figure out what I want. But for now, interview as a receptionist who agreed to meet my salary expectations, and tonight I am going swimming again, and then going home to finish laundry, clean the bathroom and hallway (I cleaned everything else yesterday) and make sausages on the barbeque.
Or eat left overs. I haven't decided.
I need to take out a mass amount of compost (I am leaving it in the fridge because frankly I don't want it sitting outside until Friday), take out recycling, clean out the litter, and debate whether to dye my hair.
Here's what I have learned: my soulmate, Will, means more to me than he realized. His partner, CJ, doesn't really care if I live or die. I mean that in a nice way. He's a nice person with a good heart and soul and treats me well but...I am not part of his overall plan. Heather? I couldn't care less anymore. Helena has been back from Greece two weeks and I had no idea. I decided maybe it's time for someone to miss me for once. I can't keep following up with everyone all the time. My parents love me. My foster family loves me. I am closer to Christopher though than Andrew. Frank and I are at an impasse of our own doing - and I am okay with that distance for now. I need to sell my car. I don't want to work in law anymore. I despise not having fake nails (I took them off over a week ago because I just didn't want to pay to fix them and now I am completely wishing I hadn't lol). That I may not be able to date Greg, but that HE is truly part of my heart. Do you know the whole weekend he called to check up on me? that's heart.
I went to this pool near my house that I didn't know existed, and there are trails everywhere. Will showed me it by accident when we went to pick up Chinese food Saturday night. Because I was alone and for various other reasons, Greg had me stick a note with my health card number and his contact information attached to my phone.
We split because I wanted him to grow up, learn responsibility, appreciate all I did for him, and be the man I know he can be. And it looks like he's doing just that.
I guess for now I am going to solidly attempt to figure out what I want. But for now, interview as a receptionist who agreed to meet my salary expectations, and tonight I am going swimming again, and then going home to finish laundry, clean the bathroom and hallway (I cleaned everything else yesterday) and make sausages on the barbeque.
Or eat left overs. I haven't decided.
I need to take out a mass amount of compost (I am leaving it in the fridge because frankly I don't want it sitting outside until Friday), take out recycling, clean out the litter, and debate whether to dye my hair.