for real this time
So I finally posted a couple of photos from my chicago trip. What a week it has been. Well I will start by telling you about my chicago trip. First of all I left tuesday after work, of course I left early, but after work nonetheless. I actually could not have made my flight if I did not take of early, so I did what I had to do while still getting paid for it. So I get into chicago and we go straight to this show, which ended up being very small, and it was byob. So rick and I decide that we are going to walk to the package store. Well little do we know that is about at least a couple of miles away, so on the way we duck into this little place. Which mind you is on the south side of chicago, and ends up being a mafioso place. Typical wise guy when we walk in has to approve us, and asks us who we know and why we are here. He had the slicked back hair, gold chain, white button down shirt, chest hair popping out. He wants to know everything about us just to get into this place. Well we actually get in to, then Tony comes up behind us and then puts his hands on our shoulders and tells the bartender to set us up with an appetizer because we are "good guys". He also told us where to get a couple 6 packs at, and when we went in all we had to say was that "tony sent us", and bam a bar sold us a couple 6 packs without a liscense. Tony would not do it at his establishment because he doesnt have a liscence for that kind of thing and "I dont know yous guys". By far that was the most surreal Chicago mafia thing that has ever happened to me. I have even met Joe Pecsi and this topped that. Ok well Rick ends up skipping work and we just hung out for a couple days. Ive gotta say I miss that boy. I got me a fedora while in chicago, because for some reason when I go to weddings I always end up buying a hat. Pretty crazy, dont ask me why it just happens that way. I had an amazing time, oh yeah since I was best man I had my best man speech, which went so well I was surprised. It was funny and genuine, I hope that it will be on youtube soon. It went so well in fact I had people come up to me afterwards and tell me I should do that for a living. I could only think do what exactly? Write best man speeches? I think they were refering to stand up, but that in itself was amusing. Weddings are strange to me now. I am happy for the both of them but I have no faith in the institution. Maybe its because I dont know any happily married people. So its really hard to be going trough all of these things and have to walk up the isle with someone. If I were to cry about something it would be that I was really sad about marriage in and of itself. Anyways it was a beautiful ceremony and I wish the best for them. Oh yeah minor details I ended up doing knee slides across the dance floor at the reception and riping my shirt open. I dont know why it just happened. I suppose peer pressure still had an affect over me. Then this week has been crazy. I have been on an emotional roller coaster this week. I have cried more in this week than I have in a long time. I have been emotional because I feel like in a way I disappointed my son by not staying with Tasha. I always wanted more for him than I had for myself, and I just could not stay for somewhat selfish reasons. Mostly it was because of love or the lack thereof, well also respect. Also I went inside the house we both used to occupy, and I loked around at all the work I had done to restore the house, and all of this furniture that I had built. Then just things (I know its only material shit) like the comforts of home for me. For instance a nice big comfortable couch, a big tv with a million movies, and uverse with dvr. To a play room for Ryder, his own bedroom, and an office. It is a home to him, and I feel like what I have now as far as a living situation is concerned is not really a home. Its just a rent house. I just want to provide so much more for him, and buy a new house just for us. Well Ryder is awake and although I would love to elaborate I want to treasure our time together.