Enjoying Myself...for now
I am typing this from the PC Lab at the Community College of Aurora. The reason I am here is cause Robert is in class, and we are gonna hang out afterwards. They guys are donating plasma, so I need to find something to do. Originally, I was gonna roll by my friend Ashley and her man's place, but they are in the middle of a break-up and I am not dealing with that today. I recently got into it with Kelly. Despite the fact that I apologized and felt bad about everything, I have a slight feeling that her...patience with me has dropped a notch. The thing is, I don't like it when people pry into Sarah and I's problems. They are miniscule compared to most relationships I have been in, and needless to say, it increases the problem ten-fold when another party decides to "lend" their opinion. In most cases I'd say "fuck'em". But, ever since I met Sarah, my rebellious attitude has thinned and almost disappeared. However, I still retain my ability to tell someone what I think, feel, or see...and my ability to do it without fear of retribution. Call it what you want, but I will defend myself or someone I care about if the need is justifiable...please believe that! On a more sad note, my brother is going back to Louisiana on May 13th(*sniff*). So...the only family I have in Colorado is leaving. Somewhere in the dark recesses of my mind, I feel as if I will be disowned by my family eventually. Maybe it's me...or my paranoia getting to me, but I feel as I am to expect a loss soon...I just wish I could pinpoint it. On the 19th of this month is my court hearing in regards to my little one. I have a bad feeling about it, cause I think Brandy is gonna pull some shit and have me arrested. Once again, I think it's just my paranoia playing tricks on me. On the 23rd(provided I don't go to jail), Sarah and myself and I believe Nico and Jay are going to Colorado Springs to hang out with my Guild for a day. Laser Tag, Food, sword-play...fuck yeah!! At least it's something to look forward to. Well, I am off. I'm gonna nav the Net for a spell. Peace niggas!!!LOL!!