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I wish I could dance.
I can do many things. But dancing is not one of them. I simply have no grace. I used to be a ballerina until I pulled a major muscle. I also used to be a gymnast until my coach got too pushy. I mean, I can bend like nobody's business - I can contort to a certain extent - but I just can't dance. I have rhythm, obviously, because I used to play the drums and the piano. But I just can't move. I've tried. Oh, trust me, I've tried. But I don't have the grace. Surprising, because I was in ballet for so long. But I'm too stiff. I'm constantly told that I'm too rigid, too proper, too stiff.
I want to be able to dance with a boy. I want to be able to move with another person in a dumbfounding, intriguing, and strangely titillating way. When a good song comes on, I want to be able to sway my hips and close my eyes and just feel the thrum of the rhythm flow through my body and not worry about how stupid or awkward or pathetic I look when I move. It's in me... I want to move. I just don't know how. But even when someone tries to teach me to dance now, it just doesn't work. I can't loosen up.
And I want to dance. I really do. But I think it's going to take a miracle. :(
I can do many things. But dancing is not one of them. I simply have no grace. I used to be a ballerina until I pulled a major muscle. I also used to be a gymnast until my coach got too pushy. I mean, I can bend like nobody's business - I can contort to a certain extent - but I just can't dance. I have rhythm, obviously, because I used to play the drums and the piano. But I just can't move. I've tried. Oh, trust me, I've tried. But I don't have the grace. Surprising, because I was in ballet for so long. But I'm too stiff. I'm constantly told that I'm too rigid, too proper, too stiff.
I want to be able to dance with a boy. I want to be able to move with another person in a dumbfounding, intriguing, and strangely titillating way. When a good song comes on, I want to be able to sway my hips and close my eyes and just feel the thrum of the rhythm flow through my body and not worry about how stupid or awkward or pathetic I look when I move. It's in me... I want to move. I just don't know how. But even when someone tries to teach me to dance now, it just doesn't work. I can't loosen up.
And I want to dance. I really do. But I think it's going to take a miracle. :(