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I've put myself back together. I was riding in the car the other day, listening to my portable cd player, thinking, "I'm not writing anymore Benji/Billy fics anymore. The pairing's getting boring." But yeah. I still am, just because that's the only GC pairing I write about. So..yeah, the shit
Title : Failure By Designer Jeans
Pairing : Billy/Joel (a tad) and Billy/Benji
Rating : Mature
Summary : You don't realize how much you love something the most until it's gone. Benji breaks up with Billy; Billy dates Joel. Will the two guitarists get back together?
Disclaimer : This shit never happened. I don't own a damn thing except Billy's lip ring.
Failure By Designer Jeans
Joel and Billy had been dating for about a month or so. Though he found Joel attractive, Billy didn't have any real feelings toward the vocalist. They had gotten together after Benji broke up with Billy. Billy never confronted Joel about it, but he knew that Joel was just dating him because he was angry with Benji. Angry that his brother had broken Billy's heart. He wanted Benji to feel terrible about the break up. Billy went along with it, but he did miss the older Madden twin.
The couple sat on the couch in the living room. Joel's arm was wrapped around Billy's thin waist in a possessive gesture. They were watching an old black-and-white movie, but neither of them was really interested in it.
Billy looked up to see Benji enter the room with Paul on his heels. Benji narrowed his eyes at his brother and Billy, feeling envious. Joel locked eyes with Benji, pulling Billy closer to him. Paul smiled nervously, feeling the wave of tension that had just floated into the room. Billy shifted uncomfortably under Joel's arm.
Billy felt awkward, being with his new boyfriend with his ex in the same room. He also felt like shit for somehow causing the conflict between the twin brothers. He opened his mouth, but couldn't find a word to say.
Benji rolled his eyes before he disappeared into the kitchen, muttering something along the lines of, "I can't believe this shit."
Benji entered the kitchen, his temper rising. He was pissed off at Joel, pissed off at Billy, and he felt like throwing himself off a bridge. He missed Billy. He regretted the argument they had had. He regretted telling Billy that his feelings for him had changed. He loved Billy to death, he really did. He wanted the guitarist back. He wanted him back into his arms again, not in Joel's.
Benji gripped the edge of the countertop, feeling slightly dizzy as dozens of his emotions washed over him.
"What's up with Benji?" Billy asked Paul who had taken a seat in the arm chair.
Billy wasn't sure what Benji's problem was. Maybe he was jealous. Billy still wasn't sure. Benji shouldn't have been. He was the one that ended the relationship. Billy's stomach gave a lurch as he recalled the night Benji broke up with him.
"He's just been upset since..." Paul opened and shut his mouth several times before finishing his sentence. "...you and Joel started seeing each other."
Billy nodded.
"But don't worry," Paul assure Billy after noticing the look of concern on the guitarist's face, "Benji's just feeling all of these different emotions at once. He's just..."
"Being an ass," Joel finished Paul's sentence for him. Billy was sure that Paul wasn't going to say that though.
Paul chuckled, and then turned back to Billy. "Maybe you can talk to him?" Paul suggested, unsure, yet hopeful.
Billy nodded again. "Yeah, yeah, sure." He started to stand up.
"Why?!" Joel said angrily. "It's his problem. He broke up with you, remember?"
"Of course I remember, Joel." Billy wanted to slap Joel for bringing the break up up again. "But Benji's still my friend." He rubbed Joel's knee reassuringly.
Billy stood up and headed into the kitchen. He stepped onto the kitchen's tiled floor just as Benji slammed his fist down on the countertop in frustration. Billy gasped softly and took a step back.
"Uh, Benji," Billy stammered.
Benji turned quick, now aware that Billy was present in the kitchen. "What?" Benji snapped.
"Are you okay?" Billy asked in a comforting voice. "Paul said you've been upset."
Benji waited for what seem like an eternity before speaking again. "Why, Billy?" was all he said.
"Why what, Benji?" Billy asked, puzzled.
"Why are you with Joel? To make me jealous?" Benji ran a shaking hand through his dyed black hair.
"No," Billy answered firmly. It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't completely true. Billy wasn't quite sure why he was seeing Joel. Maybe it was because he needed someone to keep him from falling apart. He wasn't sure.
"Then why?" Benji's brown eyes locked with Billy's blue.
"I..." Billy racked his mind for a reason. He couldn't think of one that would get Benji off his back.
"Is there even one real reason, Billy? You don't even know, do you?" Benji chuckled and wrung his hands. "You know I loved you, right? You know I still love you, don't you, Billy? Don't you know that, Billy?" Benji's voice had risen to almost a shout.
"If you loved me so fucking much, why did you leave me, Benji?" Billy yelled, feeing angrier than he should have, "Huh? Why'd you end everything when I needed you most?" A lone tear slid down Billy's cheek, but he didn't bother to wipe it away. "Goddamn it, Benji. I loved you. I love y-" He sniffled as two more tears followed the first.
Benji walked slowly over to Billy. When he was barely an inch away from Billy's face, he whispered something in Billy's ear that Billy had been dying to hear since they broke up.
"I love you, Billy," he whispered, his voice tickling Billy's ear. And to Billy's surprise, he placed a kiss on Billy's lips. Benji wiped away Billy's falling tears with a sad smile before leaving Billy alone in the kitchen.
Billy let out a heavy sigh, realizing he had been holding his breath. He slapped his forehead, and then ran his hand through his hair, his now heavy heart beating irregularly.
Once he got himself together Billy left the kitchen and went back into the living room.
"Where's Joel?" He asked Paul, scanning the room for the vocalist.
"He followed Benji upstairs," Paul answered. "Benji wasn't looking well when he left that kitchen."
Billy groaned, wondering if Benji had mentioned the kiss. "Did he say anything?"
"Nope."
Billy nodded. "Well I'm going to get some rest." He gave Paul a fake yawn, and then headed upstairs.
When Benji reached the second floor landing he stopped dead in his track. The Madden twins were arguing in Benji's room. Billy crept towards Benji's open door and leaned against the wall next to it.
"Why can't you fucking leave him alone?!" Benji yelled at his brother.
"Like you did, Benji?" Joel yelled back.
"Joel, you don't give a fuck about him! You're just pissed 'cause I broke up with him!"
"I care about him more than you did!" Joel took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. “Why do you care anyway, Benj?" He asked suspicious.
"You know why," Benji said in a soft, calm voice.
"Nope, please enlighten me."
"Because I love him, Joel. I want him back. Fuck, Joel." Benji voice trembled. "I miss him."
Joel smirked. "You idiot! Why did you break up with him then?"
"I don't know, Joel. I don't know." Benji began to sob quietly
"Benji, just think about it," Joel said in a final tone. "If you love him and he loves you, then you'll be able to have him back." Joel said and ended the conversation
Billy began to head to his room because he knew that Joel was about to come out of Benji's room. He had learned a lot now. Thank God for eavesdropping.
Billy shut his bedroom door behind him. He turned on his stereo and sat down on the edge of his bed. He buried his forehead in his palms, mind racing. He was so happy now that he knew Benji still loved him and wanted to get back together. He wanted to be back in Benji's arms, but... Benji had hurt him so bad. He had brought him such an unbearable pain. He thought his head would explode with all the things going on inside of it.
But Billy's thoughts were interrupted when Joel pushed his door open. Joel stepped into the dimly lit room and smiled at Billy. Billy forced a smile on his face, wondering what Joel wanted.
"Hey, Billy," Joel said and shut Billy's door with a soft 'click'. "What's up?" Joel walked over to Billy's bed and kneeled down in front of him.
"Hey, Joel," Billy said and entangled his slender fingers in Joel's dark hair.
"You all right?" Joel asked. "You look stressed."
"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine," Billy lied. "Just a little tired."
Joel nodded. "Maybe I can do something to help you." Joel reached up with one arm and caressed Billy's cheek. He kissed Billy on the lips. The kiss was slow and passionate. Billy kissed Joel back. His lower lip was sucked into Joel's mouth and Joel felt Billy's loping click against his teeth.
Joel pulled back, breaking the kiss. He pushed Billy gently back onto the bed. Billy moved up towards his headboard. He propped himself up on his elbows and raised an eyebrow. Joel crawled onto the bed and straddled Billy's legs. He slid his hands under Billy's T-shirt, running them down Billy's chest, and then he twirled Billy's nipples between his fingers. Billy bit down on his lip, stifling a moan. All of his troubles seemed to wash away at Joel's touch.
The two had never done anything like this. They had kissed once or twice and held hands, but it had never gone further than that.
Billy wondered why Joel was here in his room, teasing his nipples with his soft fingers, after he'd had that argument with Benji. He didn't think about it for long because Joel was pulling his shirt up. Billy sat up and let Joel remove the shirt. Joel's lips moved down Billy's neck, kissing his neck, and licking at Billy's sweet, pallid flesh.
Billy sucked his lip ring into his mouth, trying his hardest to keep his eyes open as Joel licked the side of his neck. Joel tugged at Billy's hair as he heated up the guitarist beneath him.
"Does this feel good?" Joel asked and began to suck on Billy's neck, hard enough to leave a mark. Billy moaned an answer that sounded a bit like 'yes' and Joel smiled against his skin. Billy felt himself getting hard as Joel began to grind his hips against Billy's.
"Up," Joel instructed. Billy realized what Joel was talking about when he took a look down at his jeans. He lifted his hips off the bed and Joel discarded the unnecessary article of clothing. Joel tugged down Billy's boxers and threw them onto the floor. Joel smiled at Billy's lil Billy which wasn't that little, especially when it was rock hard.
Joel ran his finger along Billy's underside and felt Billy quiver at his touch. He stroked Billy's erection and Billy's breath sped up. Billy whimpered as Joel strokes became slower. He thrust his hips up into Joel's hand. Joel kissed the tip and Billy shivered, his slender fingers finding their way to Joel's hair again. He ran his tongue along the underside. Billy hissed as Joel licked up the pre cum off of his tip.
"J-Joel," His voice trembled. "Please..."
Joel smiled, enjoying the teasing.
"Oh fuck!" Billy yelled as Joel took Billy's head into his mouth and Billy nearly screamed. He tugged at the dark strands of hair in his hand. Joel moved his lips along Billy's cock, taking more of Billy's length into his hot mouth. Billy's breath grew fast and heavy, his moans and whimpers crescendoed as his tip hit the back of Joel's throat. Joel gripped Billy's thigh in one hand, the other beneath Billy's cock, fiddling with Billy's balls. Billy let his head fall back onto the bed, his fingers still entangled in Joel's hair, threatening to pull the strands from Joel's scalp. Joel sucked harder on Billy's cock and then Billy felt that feeling in his stomach. He pushed Joel's head down on his cock as he felt his oragsm coming.
"Oh, Joel, fuck..." He moaned. "Benj--" He called as he came in Joel's mouth. Joel swallowed Billy down and pulled back. He wiped the cum that had spilled from his mouth off his bottom lip. He smiled up at Billy who was panting on the bed, eyes half-lidded, chest slick with sweat and heaving.
Joel crawled up the bed, so that his face was level with Billy's. Billy turned to face Joel and smiled back at him. He opened his mouth, but shut it right after, unsure of what to say. Joel kissed him, realizing that Billy must have felt a little awkward. Billy moaned against Joel's tongue, tasting himself in Joel's mouth and on his lips.
Joel broke the kiss and licked his lips. "You said Benji's name when you came," Joel said, running a finger down Billy's chest.
"What?!" Billy hadn't even realized it.
"Yeah, you said 'Benj'."
"God, I'm sorry, Joel."
Joel nodded. "It's okay." He kissed Billy again and sat up. "I'm gonna go to my room."
Joel stood up and walked over to Billy's bedroom door. "Joel?" Billy called. Joel turned to the bed. "What about you?" He gestured towards Joel's crotch.
Joel smiled. "You owe me," he said simply. He blew Billy a kiss and left the room, shutting the door behind him.
Again? How were he and Benji going to break up again if they weren't even together. Billy slid under his sheets and fell asleep, his head ready to burst once again.
Title : Failure By Designer Jeans
Pairing : Billy/Joel (a tad) and Billy/Benji
Rating : Mature
Summary : You don't realize how much you love something the most until it's gone. Benji breaks up with Billy; Billy dates Joel. Will the two guitarists get back together?
Disclaimer : This shit never happened. I don't own a damn thing except Billy's lip ring.
Failure By Designer Jeans
Joel and Billy had been dating for about a month or so. Though he found Joel attractive, Billy didn't have any real feelings toward the vocalist. They had gotten together after Benji broke up with Billy. Billy never confronted Joel about it, but he knew that Joel was just dating him because he was angry with Benji. Angry that his brother had broken Billy's heart. He wanted Benji to feel terrible about the break up. Billy went along with it, but he did miss the older Madden twin.
The couple sat on the couch in the living room. Joel's arm was wrapped around Billy's thin waist in a possessive gesture. They were watching an old black-and-white movie, but neither of them was really interested in it.
Billy looked up to see Benji enter the room with Paul on his heels. Benji narrowed his eyes at his brother and Billy, feeling envious. Joel locked eyes with Benji, pulling Billy closer to him. Paul smiled nervously, feeling the wave of tension that had just floated into the room. Billy shifted uncomfortably under Joel's arm.
Billy felt awkward, being with his new boyfriend with his ex in the same room. He also felt like shit for somehow causing the conflict between the twin brothers. He opened his mouth, but couldn't find a word to say.
Benji rolled his eyes before he disappeared into the kitchen, muttering something along the lines of, "I can't believe this shit."
Benji entered the kitchen, his temper rising. He was pissed off at Joel, pissed off at Billy, and he felt like throwing himself off a bridge. He missed Billy. He regretted the argument they had had. He regretted telling Billy that his feelings for him had changed. He loved Billy to death, he really did. He wanted the guitarist back. He wanted him back into his arms again, not in Joel's.
Benji gripped the edge of the countertop, feeling slightly dizzy as dozens of his emotions washed over him.
"What's up with Benji?" Billy asked Paul who had taken a seat in the arm chair.
Billy wasn't sure what Benji's problem was. Maybe he was jealous. Billy still wasn't sure. Benji shouldn't have been. He was the one that ended the relationship. Billy's stomach gave a lurch as he recalled the night Benji broke up with him.
"He's just been upset since..." Paul opened and shut his mouth several times before finishing his sentence. "...you and Joel started seeing each other."
Billy nodded.
"But don't worry," Paul assure Billy after noticing the look of concern on the guitarist's face, "Benji's just feeling all of these different emotions at once. He's just..."
"Being an ass," Joel finished Paul's sentence for him. Billy was sure that Paul wasn't going to say that though.
Paul chuckled, and then turned back to Billy. "Maybe you can talk to him?" Paul suggested, unsure, yet hopeful.
Billy nodded again. "Yeah, yeah, sure." He started to stand up.
"Why?!" Joel said angrily. "It's his problem. He broke up with you, remember?"
"Of course I remember, Joel." Billy wanted to slap Joel for bringing the break up up again. "But Benji's still my friend." He rubbed Joel's knee reassuringly.
Billy stood up and headed into the kitchen. He stepped onto the kitchen's tiled floor just as Benji slammed his fist down on the countertop in frustration. Billy gasped softly and took a step back.
"Uh, Benji," Billy stammered.
Benji turned quick, now aware that Billy was present in the kitchen. "What?" Benji snapped.
"Are you okay?" Billy asked in a comforting voice. "Paul said you've been upset."
Benji waited for what seem like an eternity before speaking again. "Why, Billy?" was all he said.
"Why what, Benji?" Billy asked, puzzled.
"Why are you with Joel? To make me jealous?" Benji ran a shaking hand through his dyed black hair.
"No," Billy answered firmly. It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't completely true. Billy wasn't quite sure why he was seeing Joel. Maybe it was because he needed someone to keep him from falling apart. He wasn't sure.
"Then why?" Benji's brown eyes locked with Billy's blue.
"I..." Billy racked his mind for a reason. He couldn't think of one that would get Benji off his back.
"Is there even one real reason, Billy? You don't even know, do you?" Benji chuckled and wrung his hands. "You know I loved you, right? You know I still love you, don't you, Billy? Don't you know that, Billy?" Benji's voice had risen to almost a shout.
"If you loved me so fucking much, why did you leave me, Benji?" Billy yelled, feeing angrier than he should have, "Huh? Why'd you end everything when I needed you most?" A lone tear slid down Billy's cheek, but he didn't bother to wipe it away. "Goddamn it, Benji. I loved you. I love y-" He sniffled as two more tears followed the first.
Benji walked slowly over to Billy. When he was barely an inch away from Billy's face, he whispered something in Billy's ear that Billy had been dying to hear since they broke up.
"I love you, Billy," he whispered, his voice tickling Billy's ear. And to Billy's surprise, he placed a kiss on Billy's lips. Benji wiped away Billy's falling tears with a sad smile before leaving Billy alone in the kitchen.
Billy let out a heavy sigh, realizing he had been holding his breath. He slapped his forehead, and then ran his hand through his hair, his now heavy heart beating irregularly.
Once he got himself together Billy left the kitchen and went back into the living room.
"Where's Joel?" He asked Paul, scanning the room for the vocalist.
"He followed Benji upstairs," Paul answered. "Benji wasn't looking well when he left that kitchen."
Billy groaned, wondering if Benji had mentioned the kiss. "Did he say anything?"
"Nope."
Billy nodded. "Well I'm going to get some rest." He gave Paul a fake yawn, and then headed upstairs.
When Benji reached the second floor landing he stopped dead in his track. The Madden twins were arguing in Benji's room. Billy crept towards Benji's open door and leaned against the wall next to it.
"Why can't you fucking leave him alone?!" Benji yelled at his brother.
"Like you did, Benji?" Joel yelled back.
"Joel, you don't give a fuck about him! You're just pissed 'cause I broke up with him!"
"I care about him more than you did!" Joel took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. “Why do you care anyway, Benj?" He asked suspicious.
"You know why," Benji said in a soft, calm voice.
"Nope, please enlighten me."
"Because I love him, Joel. I want him back. Fuck, Joel." Benji voice trembled. "I miss him."
Joel smirked. "You idiot! Why did you break up with him then?"
"I don't know, Joel. I don't know." Benji began to sob quietly
"Benji, just think about it," Joel said in a final tone. "If you love him and he loves you, then you'll be able to have him back." Joel said and ended the conversation
Billy began to head to his room because he knew that Joel was about to come out of Benji's room. He had learned a lot now. Thank God for eavesdropping.
Billy shut his bedroom door behind him. He turned on his stereo and sat down on the edge of his bed. He buried his forehead in his palms, mind racing. He was so happy now that he knew Benji still loved him and wanted to get back together. He wanted to be back in Benji's arms, but... Benji had hurt him so bad. He had brought him such an unbearable pain. He thought his head would explode with all the things going on inside of it.
But Billy's thoughts were interrupted when Joel pushed his door open. Joel stepped into the dimly lit room and smiled at Billy. Billy forced a smile on his face, wondering what Joel wanted.
"Hey, Billy," Joel said and shut Billy's door with a soft 'click'. "What's up?" Joel walked over to Billy's bed and kneeled down in front of him.
"Hey, Joel," Billy said and entangled his slender fingers in Joel's dark hair.
"You all right?" Joel asked. "You look stressed."
"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine," Billy lied. "Just a little tired."
Joel nodded. "Maybe I can do something to help you." Joel reached up with one arm and caressed Billy's cheek. He kissed Billy on the lips. The kiss was slow and passionate. Billy kissed Joel back. His lower lip was sucked into Joel's mouth and Joel felt Billy's loping click against his teeth.
Joel pulled back, breaking the kiss. He pushed Billy gently back onto the bed. Billy moved up towards his headboard. He propped himself up on his elbows and raised an eyebrow. Joel crawled onto the bed and straddled Billy's legs. He slid his hands under Billy's T-shirt, running them down Billy's chest, and then he twirled Billy's nipples between his fingers. Billy bit down on his lip, stifling a moan. All of his troubles seemed to wash away at Joel's touch.
The two had never done anything like this. They had kissed once or twice and held hands, but it had never gone further than that.
Billy wondered why Joel was here in his room, teasing his nipples with his soft fingers, after he'd had that argument with Benji. He didn't think about it for long because Joel was pulling his shirt up. Billy sat up and let Joel remove the shirt. Joel's lips moved down Billy's neck, kissing his neck, and licking at Billy's sweet, pallid flesh.
Billy sucked his lip ring into his mouth, trying his hardest to keep his eyes open as Joel licked the side of his neck. Joel tugged at Billy's hair as he heated up the guitarist beneath him.
"Does this feel good?" Joel asked and began to suck on Billy's neck, hard enough to leave a mark. Billy moaned an answer that sounded a bit like 'yes' and Joel smiled against his skin. Billy felt himself getting hard as Joel began to grind his hips against Billy's.
"Up," Joel instructed. Billy realized what Joel was talking about when he took a look down at his jeans. He lifted his hips off the bed and Joel discarded the unnecessary article of clothing. Joel tugged down Billy's boxers and threw them onto the floor. Joel smiled at Billy's lil Billy which wasn't that little, especially when it was rock hard.
Joel ran his finger along Billy's underside and felt Billy quiver at his touch. He stroked Billy's erection and Billy's breath sped up. Billy whimpered as Joel strokes became slower. He thrust his hips up into Joel's hand. Joel kissed the tip and Billy shivered, his slender fingers finding their way to Joel's hair again. He ran his tongue along the underside. Billy hissed as Joel licked up the pre cum off of his tip.
"J-Joel," His voice trembled. "Please..."
Joel smiled, enjoying the teasing.
"Oh fuck!" Billy yelled as Joel took Billy's head into his mouth and Billy nearly screamed. He tugged at the dark strands of hair in his hand. Joel moved his lips along Billy's cock, taking more of Billy's length into his hot mouth. Billy's breath grew fast and heavy, his moans and whimpers crescendoed as his tip hit the back of Joel's throat. Joel gripped Billy's thigh in one hand, the other beneath Billy's cock, fiddling with Billy's balls. Billy let his head fall back onto the bed, his fingers still entangled in Joel's hair, threatening to pull the strands from Joel's scalp. Joel sucked harder on Billy's cock and then Billy felt that feeling in his stomach. He pushed Joel's head down on his cock as he felt his oragsm coming.
"Oh, Joel, fuck..." He moaned. "Benj--" He called as he came in Joel's mouth. Joel swallowed Billy down and pulled back. He wiped the cum that had spilled from his mouth off his bottom lip. He smiled up at Billy who was panting on the bed, eyes half-lidded, chest slick with sweat and heaving.
Joel crawled up the bed, so that his face was level with Billy's. Billy turned to face Joel and smiled back at him. He opened his mouth, but shut it right after, unsure of what to say. Joel kissed him, realizing that Billy must have felt a little awkward. Billy moaned against Joel's tongue, tasting himself in Joel's mouth and on his lips.
Joel broke the kiss and licked his lips. "You said Benji's name when you came," Joel said, running a finger down Billy's chest.
"What?!" Billy hadn't even realized it.
"Yeah, you said 'Benj'."
"God, I'm sorry, Joel."
Joel nodded. "It's okay." He kissed Billy again and sat up. "I'm gonna go to my room."
Joel stood up and walked over to Billy's bedroom door. "Joel?" Billy called. Joel turned to the bed. "What about you?" He gestured towards Joel's crotch.
Joel smiled. "You owe me," he said simply. He blew Billy a kiss and left the room, shutting the door behind him.
Again? How were he and Benji going to break up again if they weren't even together. Billy slid under his sheets and fell asleep, his head ready to burst once again.