Love so strong
No, this is not an entry about love [to your big whiney suprise i bet]. Tonight i let myself be dragged out to a bar called [the local "gay bar," she says in a a conspritoral whisper] Rumours. Its the only place you can really dance in this 70,000 person town, unless you want live music. I am a spaz dancer. Especially weekends at Rumours. Its all the polo shirt, blonde streaked, velour jumpsuit, freakazoids that all dance the same. The drunk college kids annoy me [pergatory help that i am still enrolled at the University]. Especailly since this really is the gay bar. Let me relay the incident.
There is a guy sitting at a little round table, alone and watching people dance. Two openly gay older guys come out to dance, dancing funky. I love it. They look very friendly and i want to dance with them. This guy sitting at the chair immediately moves backa few chairs and his body language is openly hostile. It scares me!!!!!! Why, you wonder? Well, for about 15 minutes i watched this guy and his friend stare at the dancing gay guys, almost looking liike they are going to freak, like the have hands over their mouths, retching-like. I am SO AFRAID these stupid narrow minded hypocritical homophobic puny boys are going to decied to perform a hate crime. I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND IT!!!! I guess i dont have to mention that i am very passionate about gay rights. I think it is just part of human rights, and though i can hear and see the arguements people propose about not agreeing with humans being gay, i just dont UNDERSTAND. Hate is hate and it really is never ever justified. Hate is fear and ignorance. HATE IS FEAR AND IGNORANCE. How could i ever live with myself if i felt hate such as some people do against other religions, ethnicities, cultures??? HOW???
Ok, calm down Carmen. One aspect about me is that i am very "liberal" in this belief. The first amendment should be applied to everyone.
Well, i began this night thinking i was not interested in dancing and just wanted to people watch. I cant help it though. I love to dance. Its the spazzy Carmen-makes-fun-of-dancing dancing. I SWEAR people moved away from me when i came onto the floor [as the most underdressed female in the room i am oh-so intimidating]. Its so fun *giggles*. I just love that i can swing my hips with the rest of them and abandon my selfhood when dancing. If i were less inhibited i would just let it all out and spaz as much as needed to fulfill me...hehehehe...
There is a guy sitting at a little round table, alone and watching people dance. Two openly gay older guys come out to dance, dancing funky. I love it. They look very friendly and i want to dance with them. This guy sitting at the chair immediately moves backa few chairs and his body language is openly hostile. It scares me!!!!!! Why, you wonder? Well, for about 15 minutes i watched this guy and his friend stare at the dancing gay guys, almost looking liike they are going to freak, like the have hands over their mouths, retching-like. I am SO AFRAID these stupid narrow minded hypocritical homophobic puny boys are going to decied to perform a hate crime. I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND IT!!!! I guess i dont have to mention that i am very passionate about gay rights. I think it is just part of human rights, and though i can hear and see the arguements people propose about not agreeing with humans being gay, i just dont UNDERSTAND. Hate is hate and it really is never ever justified. Hate is fear and ignorance. HATE IS FEAR AND IGNORANCE. How could i ever live with myself if i felt hate such as some people do against other religions, ethnicities, cultures??? HOW???
Ok, calm down Carmen. One aspect about me is that i am very "liberal" in this belief. The first amendment should be applied to everyone.
Well, i began this night thinking i was not interested in dancing and just wanted to people watch. I cant help it though. I love to dance. Its the spazzy Carmen-makes-fun-of-dancing dancing. I SWEAR people moved away from me when i came onto the floor [as the most underdressed female in the room i am oh-so intimidating]. Its so fun *giggles*. I just love that i can swing my hips with the rest of them and abandon my selfhood when dancing. If i were less inhibited i would just let it all out and spaz as much as needed to fulfill me...hehehehe...