yikes
damn. that's what i have to say at this point in my graduate school career. i don't think i have ever done so poorly in my life. part of the reason is because i don't think i am well acclimated to the teaching style here at UTD. but the main reason is that i am simply not prepared for the rigors of graduate courses.
now before you start telling me that i am just being overly pessimistic, i would like to tell you that i have officially scored way below average on all three of my midterms. as much as i hate to say it, i am technically failing all 3 of my classes. on top of that, my fellowship requires at least a 3.5 at the end of an academic year (spring 2007). so as you may see, i am facing a bit of a dilemma.
still, i'm going to give it my best and i think some retooling of my study habits, etc. is in order. moreover, it is quite a downer to constantly think of failing, and that is something i will have to battle as well. i'm feeling somewhat lost at this juncture since i seem to not have the skillset required for grad school. that sort of indicates that i might not have the necessary skillset required for real world work. and frankly, that scares me. if i cannot even do this, how will i survive out there? like carol, i am feeling somewhat out of place with my direction in life. hopefully it will all clear up soon for us.
in the meantime, i am going to do my best and see what happens. thanks for reading :) hope you all are doing okay! :) -me