(no subject)
Had my history exam on friday. It was surprisingly easy, I'm almost sure I passed, and it is SUCH a relief to listen to Vivaldi (1678-1741 FUCK YOU BRAIN) again without being too analytical, just appreciating the music for what it is.
Yesterday was full of awesome, I had celtic club in the morning (although there were two girls behind me who wouldn't SHUT UP, which drove me insane because it's a fucking drop-in club so why the hell are they there??? Fucking spoiled self-centred bitches. Oy.) Ended up DDRing after, waiting for my dad to pick me, which was fun until some little girl started begging me to play games with her. I didn't want to tell her to screw off so I ended up spending MY money on her, and I know that she was too young to realize that things cost money and money is worked for and all that shit, but the fact that her mom was right there and not doing anything about it (except thanking me after) really pissed me off.
Then saturday night I went to an Irish pub, for Bernadette (a member of the celtic club)'s birthday. I was nervous and felt really weird when I got there because I didn't recognize anybody, but eventually James (the director of the club/guy who might be my boss if I get into a university that's not too far away) showed up and we played some tunes and I had some beers. When we were done playing I was trying to figure out where I was gonna sit, and I saw this guy sitting by himself and thought, that HAS to be Cale (a friend of the girl who told me about the club in the first place). So I went over and talked to him and basically just chilled and drank and ate some REALLY tasty nachos with Cale, James, and James' wife Jenn for the rest of the night until Cale drove me home. All in all it was a good night and I'm glad I went :)
And now, for anyone who's curious, about this "boy" I mentioned. As it turns out, not everyone you meet online is a creepy stalker/rapist/serial killer. Although it's fun to joke about. But anyway, we met online a little over a week ago and since then have been up really late almost every night talking to eachother. I was a little bit skeptical about the whole meeting people online thing but he just seemed so awesome (and like-minded) that I didn't want to take the chance that he WASN'T a serial rapist. So I actually talked to my parents about it and took their advice, which was that he should come over while they're home, which was horribly terrifying for the poor guy but the fact that he was actually willing to put himself through that was pretty damn cool. He came over today, after much procrastination. He was so nervous, it was adorable. Anyway, he's really cool, we agree on practically everything, except things that don't even come close to mattering, and...yeah I told him I didn't wanna move too quickly, just sort of let things happen on their own. I really can't let a relationship get in the way of getting into a good university and everything...but I'm really hoping I can find a good balance for everything.
Okay...I've been having these worries, about myself, who I am, the fact that I don't know yet. Mostly the fact that I've never dated a girl, so I really don't know if I'm gay straight or bi. I was thinking, what if I dated a girl and it was just completely explosive and I realized that everything I've felt up to now was nothing in comparison? But it's silly. Because...well my head kind of exploded tonight. In a good way. Which basically tells me that I'm NOT gay. So there's definitely no reason to avoid something good, just to find out if I like girls. Hell, I know I like girls. It's stupid.
Yeah, I'll stop babbling now. Good night.
Yesterday was full of awesome, I had celtic club in the morning (although there were two girls behind me who wouldn't SHUT UP, which drove me insane because it's a fucking drop-in club so why the hell are they there??? Fucking spoiled self-centred bitches. Oy.) Ended up DDRing after, waiting for my dad to pick me, which was fun until some little girl started begging me to play games with her. I didn't want to tell her to screw off so I ended up spending MY money on her, and I know that she was too young to realize that things cost money and money is worked for and all that shit, but the fact that her mom was right there and not doing anything about it (except thanking me after) really pissed me off.
Then saturday night I went to an Irish pub, for Bernadette (a member of the celtic club)'s birthday. I was nervous and felt really weird when I got there because I didn't recognize anybody, but eventually James (the director of the club/guy who might be my boss if I get into a university that's not too far away) showed up and we played some tunes and I had some beers. When we were done playing I was trying to figure out where I was gonna sit, and I saw this guy sitting by himself and thought, that HAS to be Cale (a friend of the girl who told me about the club in the first place). So I went over and talked to him and basically just chilled and drank and ate some REALLY tasty nachos with Cale, James, and James' wife Jenn for the rest of the night until Cale drove me home. All in all it was a good night and I'm glad I went :)
And now, for anyone who's curious, about this "boy" I mentioned. As it turns out, not everyone you meet online is a creepy stalker/rapist/serial killer. Although it's fun to joke about. But anyway, we met online a little over a week ago and since then have been up really late almost every night talking to eachother. I was a little bit skeptical about the whole meeting people online thing but he just seemed so awesome (and like-minded) that I didn't want to take the chance that he WASN'T a serial rapist. So I actually talked to my parents about it and took their advice, which was that he should come over while they're home, which was horribly terrifying for the poor guy but the fact that he was actually willing to put himself through that was pretty damn cool. He came over today, after much procrastination. He was so nervous, it was adorable. Anyway, he's really cool, we agree on practically everything, except things that don't even come close to mattering, and...yeah I told him I didn't wanna move too quickly, just sort of let things happen on their own. I really can't let a relationship get in the way of getting into a good university and everything...but I'm really hoping I can find a good balance for everything.
Okay...I've been having these worries, about myself, who I am, the fact that I don't know yet. Mostly the fact that I've never dated a girl, so I really don't know if I'm gay straight or bi. I was thinking, what if I dated a girl and it was just completely explosive and I realized that everything I've felt up to now was nothing in comparison? But it's silly. Because...well my head kind of exploded tonight. In a good way. Which basically tells me that I'm NOT gay. So there's definitely no reason to avoid something good, just to find out if I like girls. Hell, I know I like girls. It's stupid.
Yeah, I'll stop babbling now. Good night.