oh enough already
so as we know, i've been feeling unjustifiably narcissistic the past several days. it began, as bryan can relate to, with the application of eye makeup...then ran from there. surprisingly, my mind is completely accepting this new attitude as a welcomed break of sorts from its usual insecurity and loneliness due to being away from my boyfriend. i, however, am trying to keep remain somewhat concious to the fact that i cannot allow myself to fully indulge this persona...i did that for almost two years and all it brought me was a shitty life and drama. therefore i am keeping myself somewhat grounded, but also allowing myself to really breathe for the first time in a long while.
even this fucking post is pretentious. dear god. if i actually spoke like that, i'd have no fucking friends (except maybe liz...hehe).
i realized i started going to far tonight when i left ashley's and denied a request to hang out from my friend jared in order to go home and take more pictures of myself. that was warning sign number one. number two came when i was in the bathroom about 10 minutes ago applying white face paint in a sort of fischerspooner manner. don't worry, i stopped myself, wiped it off and am proud to say that i am photo-free for the evening.
going down to see the tally crew in, get this, boyton beach! it's like the effing twilight zone! harhar
love you all...night.
ps. the server that holds all of my pictures is down, so, in the spirit of vanity, here is a link to my dilly profile.
even this fucking post is pretentious. dear god. if i actually spoke like that, i'd have no fucking friends (except maybe liz...hehe).
i realized i started going to far tonight when i left ashley's and denied a request to hang out from my friend jared in order to go home and take more pictures of myself. that was warning sign number one. number two came when i was in the bathroom about 10 minutes ago applying white face paint in a sort of fischerspooner manner. don't worry, i stopped myself, wiped it off and am proud to say that i am photo-free for the evening.
going down to see the tally crew in, get this, boyton beach! it's like the effing twilight zone! harhar
love you all...night.
ps. the server that holds all of my pictures is down, so, in the spirit of vanity, here is a link to my dilly profile.