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i think when i get married i want to partake in all rediculous traditions. breaking of glass, the whole nine yards. who cares if im not jewish (is that right?)
i remember reaching a point in my faith were i was seriously like 'alright god, what next. i mean, are you serious, its gets better than this?'
i thought i had it made, and i thought i didn't need to try anymore. i stopped trying, i stopped chasing.
that was probably the weakest and worst decision ive ever made.
after a long terrible distraction, i finally got my head back on straight. for the last few months ive been desperate for Him, and its taken me farther than ive ever been. I can't remember ever feeling this fullfilled, this happy.
the other day i was on the soccer field and i scored. instead of doing that prideful yell i just smiled and embraced my teammates. i remember thinking 'this is Your worship, this joy is all for You'.
right now im pretty sick and the wonderful group of people that surround me are concerned with my welbeing. everytime someone asks me how im doing or how i feel i just want to say 'yea this earthly body of mine isnt holding up to well right now, but im so far beyond im not sure it matters. my spirit, my Jesus, is carrying me miles past this. I'm not even sure if i can feel pain in this sore cough you can hear.'
on a more casual note, these last few days have been pretty perfect. i hate the idea of commericalized valentines day, and i think jake knew that. sometimes im awestuck with how well it seems like he knows me. tulips are my new absolute favorite flowers.
we've been hanging out with reese lately. he's probably one of the the most funloving guys i've ever met. my plots for him to marry one of my sisters might be falling through, i think ill start egging on the union of him and one of my acct girls soon.
great days. this senior year is shaping up to be one for the records.
i remember reaching a point in my faith were i was seriously like 'alright god, what next. i mean, are you serious, its gets better than this?'
i thought i had it made, and i thought i didn't need to try anymore. i stopped trying, i stopped chasing.
that was probably the weakest and worst decision ive ever made.
after a long terrible distraction, i finally got my head back on straight. for the last few months ive been desperate for Him, and its taken me farther than ive ever been. I can't remember ever feeling this fullfilled, this happy.
the other day i was on the soccer field and i scored. instead of doing that prideful yell i just smiled and embraced my teammates. i remember thinking 'this is Your worship, this joy is all for You'.
right now im pretty sick and the wonderful group of people that surround me are concerned with my welbeing. everytime someone asks me how im doing or how i feel i just want to say 'yea this earthly body of mine isnt holding up to well right now, but im so far beyond im not sure it matters. my spirit, my Jesus, is carrying me miles past this. I'm not even sure if i can feel pain in this sore cough you can hear.'
on a more casual note, these last few days have been pretty perfect. i hate the idea of commericalized valentines day, and i think jake knew that. sometimes im awestuck with how well it seems like he knows me. tulips are my new absolute favorite flowers.
we've been hanging out with reese lately. he's probably one of the the most funloving guys i've ever met. my plots for him to marry one of my sisters might be falling through, i think ill start egging on the union of him and one of my acct girls soon.
great days. this senior year is shaping up to be one for the records.