autistic-like detachment
.........i feel dead......nothing to be dramatic over......nothing to orchestrate melodramatic histrionics over.....dead-meaning no life, no breath, no emotions........falling into a vault of nothingness.....i can not react anymore.....poke me-i will not quiver......scream at me-i will not hear.......phantoms have a quicker pulse than this.........aftershocks of a trembling earth.....long dead, but still trembling.........