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Below is a recent tarot reading. I pull one card a day. I thought this was rather poignant since I've been thinking a lot lately about you-know-who and how she is. (as always when a faire is at hand) I have come to realize that maybe I am better off now that there is no longer any relationship there. She was obviously not the person I thought she was. It's sad to think that I was fooling myself for so many years into thinking she was someone else. Her true colors showed themselves many times but I refused to see them. This was the first time in my life that I let someone into my heart and was used and discarded in such a brutal manner. Ahh, life's little lessons! Anyhoo, here's what it said:
The Five of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in a crossroads. I am not alone. I intend to let go of despair or nostalgia and I choose to make peace with loss or express mourning in order to move forward. I release the rut of regret and the fear of tomorrow to make way for forgiveness, pleasure, beauty, and hope. I am empowered by my conscience and my gift is forgiveness.
The pleasure, beauty and hope are easy as those have never been far away. (I have a beautiful life with wonderful friends and family.) Forgiveness is however a little harder. I'm not quite there yet, but as time goes by it gets easier. I kind of look at it as mourning the death of a loved one. The person I knew and loved died for me that day and was replaced with this callous, vindictive creature I didn't know. I wish this new person happiness and peace in life and hope her future doesn't include the same heartache she inflicted on me. Maybe someday she will see the folly of throwing away a true, caring friend. As once they are gone, there is no going back. No regrets, right?!
Damn, maybe that forgiveness is closer than I realized! Who's a thunk it! Would that be considered an epiphany? :)
The Five of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in a crossroads. I am not alone. I intend to let go of despair or nostalgia and I choose to make peace with loss or express mourning in order to move forward. I release the rut of regret and the fear of tomorrow to make way for forgiveness, pleasure, beauty, and hope. I am empowered by my conscience and my gift is forgiveness.
The pleasure, beauty and hope are easy as those have never been far away. (I have a beautiful life with wonderful friends and family.) Forgiveness is however a little harder. I'm not quite there yet, but as time goes by it gets easier. I kind of look at it as mourning the death of a loved one. The person I knew and loved died for me that day and was replaced with this callous, vindictive creature I didn't know. I wish this new person happiness and peace in life and hope her future doesn't include the same heartache she inflicted on me. Maybe someday she will see the folly of throwing away a true, caring friend. As once they are gone, there is no going back. No regrets, right?!
Damn, maybe that forgiveness is closer than I realized! Who's a thunk it! Would that be considered an epiphany? :)