[head space] books

[sorakirei]

As I've said before I like my therapist. Since I started seeing her, she's suggested two books for me to read.

The first was The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book by Don Miguel Ruiz. This was a most excellent book to read. Simple truths that I already know presented in a logical format. I felt energized

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[feytaline]

I heard really bad reviews of Please Stop Laughing At Me. One of the most notable ones said "She never explains why exactly she found it so compelling to continue hanging out with such a toxic group of people." So that's why I avoided that one. When god gives you lemons you FIND A NEW GOD. No, seriously... When you keep getting burned by the same people, it's time to find a change. It didn't take me too, too long to realize that.

[sorakirei]

In the book she said something like "I feel like one of those abused women on a cheesy TV special. No matter how bad they treat me, I keep coming back hoping things will be different." Which is true in many cases. Heck I've even fallen into that type of cycle a few times myself.

There were a few glimmers in there, but too much muck to make it worthwhile.

[feytaline]

For me abuse is never that clear. If I can see a clear cycle like that, I GTFO--but I'm very prone to insidious ones that are clear to other people but hidden to me. I guess that's what happens because I come from--and technically still am in--an abusive home. I don't want to be like my mother, who always believed that my dad was going to change even when it was clear that he wasn't.

[sorakirei]

Abuse is quite a muddy issue. Mine mostly fell into the hidden to me type. Just thinking about how diliberately curel people are to others makes me so sad.

[feytaline]

And when it's over, you feel like such an idiot, or just really blind for not noticing all the hell...

For me, the hardest part is seeing friends go through it.