[head space] update and discussion
I had a major emotional breakdown last week. While that sounds terrible, on the bright side I am now seeing a therapist. My first session was good and I have a feeling it will really help. As something to do between sessions, I'm journaling much more and taking the time to talk to myself. Sometimes you'll be lucky enough to be in on the conversation.
Additionally Trevor (blackpaladin) and I have split as a couple. As time passes from the break and I think/feel about it, it really was the best of things for both of us. Again on the bright side, our friendship will live on.
Even in these few days of journaling since my first session, I'm noticing it is helping. Making the time to think about myself and my feelings is a good thing after I've kept them so close and hidden for so long.
Yesterday I spent time at home online in FFXI as well as watching a variety of things on TV. Saw my dad for a few minutes and that was my day. I felt it was a good day and then I thought...
Can I really have a good day if I don't go out or really interact with others?
*break for discussion*
I feel that yes I can have a good day even if I'm by myself. And now that I think about it, when I go to write these entries I think Did I have a good day or a bad day? Emotions are not that black and white, so I'm realizing it will take time to break that. It's ok to have a neutral day, a mixed day, etc.
Thanks again for reading
Additionally Trevor (blackpaladin) and I have split as a couple. As time passes from the break and I think/feel about it, it really was the best of things for both of us. Again on the bright side, our friendship will live on.
Even in these few days of journaling since my first session, I'm noticing it is helping. Making the time to think about myself and my feelings is a good thing after I've kept them so close and hidden for so long.
Yesterday I spent time at home online in FFXI as well as watching a variety of things on TV. Saw my dad for a few minutes and that was my day. I felt it was a good day and then I thought...
Can I really have a good day if I don't go out or really interact with others?
*break for discussion*
I feel that yes I can have a good day even if I'm by myself. And now that I think about it, when I go to write these entries I think Did I have a good day or a bad day? Emotions are not that black and white, so I'm realizing it will take time to break that. It's ok to have a neutral day, a mixed day, etc.
Thanks again for reading