reflections and such
Well the first person I met at Marv's was a guy named Tom, but he said "Call me DJ, that other guy *points* is Tom." He was taller than me, with a tounge piercing, and an interesting piercing in his left ear. He let me dance with him. That was very nice since he was better and I got to play a few hard songs.
After dancing we talked a little. Exchanged online information. He thought it was really cool that I had my own domain names. He's 21 and builds houses with his dad. He was wearing mostly black and had a Duster coat. mmmmm, I like dusters.... Then we kinda did our own thing.
Later when I was a little tired, I was playing Guitar freaks, and not doing very well. While I was picking my second song, I felt this cool breeze on my neck. Nice, but I was thinking "what the...." I look around and it was DJ. I said, "you startled me." He was like "you know you liked that," with a smirk. I kinda did.
I was, in all honestly, strangly attracted to him. No my type, but at the moment, I was. If I ever go to Michigan again, I might run into him.
When I stopped by Ashitaka's, I wondered, will he bring the tape down when he opens the door? Or will he invite me up. He was wearing shorts and a t-shirt and had the tape in hand. He cracked the door and as he handed me the tape, I said "Thanks. You feeling better?" With a very happy look on his face, "Much better. How was your trip?" "Lots of fun, well bye." I didn't want him to be standing in the cold too long.
As I walked away, I couldn't help but think, I should talk to him. I should say "Hey, can I talk to you about something." Just confess. End my agony of not knowing. Put my cards on the table.
Some thoughts I had: We've known each other for a while now. We play DDR, go to movies, sometimes hang out. I enjoy your company. You're fun to be around. I like you, as more than a friend. I know there is a possibility that you will be leaving in May. Even though it may be short, I'd like to maybe be more than friends.....
Even thinking some of these things, I feel, so uncertain. But in a way I guess guys go thru this alot. When to confess, how to confess. I guess I'm stuck. I'm too chicken to say or really do anything drastic. Subtlty was never my strong suit. I'm either too direct or too vague.
I guess I just need to talk with him. Ease him into the idea that I like him. Try to be subtle.
*sigh* I was talking to my friend Gio the other day, and he said something regarding the "slow progress" and that I should probably just forget about him and move on. *sigh* He's probably right. If I leave Ashitaka alone, maybe, maybe he might think of me. Not likely..... I'd just have to keep myself busy. Stop waiting by the phone or aim for him to say something. *sigh* But I'd almost rather not know, and be around him, than leave him be.
Argh, this is very frustrating. It's times like this when I wish I could read a person's mind. I may not like what I read, but at least it would be something.