Odds and Ends
Well I have been feeling rather odd today. I don't feel myself quite anymore. At least recently.
I feel like I don't have friends. I do, I have Taylove and Kylie and Shannon. And a couple others but I'm never called to do anything. I hear about all these funny stories that they all have and I feel very out of place.
Like I shouldn't be here.
Most of my time is college and drama where I do my thing. I come and go and in the end no one cares if I'm there or not. I don't accomplish anything of value.
Sure occasionally I do something great but it doesn't matter.
But when I'm not doing those two things, I'm just sitting at home.
I want to do something.
I used to be so spontaneous! I want someone to call me and say "HEY! We're going to _________ come on!" When its 9PM on a Tuesday. Anything.
I don't even paint anymore. I used to paint all the time. I don't feel right.
No one calls, but I always hear about the things they do and think "Yeah, if they thought of me I'm sure I'd be there."
I don't like calling and saying "hey can I come" because then I feel like the idiot i am.
I don't like this feeling.
I just want to feel welcome again.
I feel like I don't have friends. I do, I have Taylove and Kylie and Shannon. And a couple others but I'm never called to do anything. I hear about all these funny stories that they all have and I feel very out of place.
Like I shouldn't be here.
Most of my time is college and drama where I do my thing. I come and go and in the end no one cares if I'm there or not. I don't accomplish anything of value.
Sure occasionally I do something great but it doesn't matter.
But when I'm not doing those two things, I'm just sitting at home.
I want to do something.
I used to be so spontaneous! I want someone to call me and say "HEY! We're going to _________ come on!" When its 9PM on a Tuesday. Anything.
I don't even paint anymore. I used to paint all the time. I don't feel right.
No one calls, but I always hear about the things they do and think "Yeah, if they thought of me I'm sure I'd be there."
I don't like calling and saying "hey can I come" because then I feel like the idiot i am.
I don't like this feeling.
I just want to feel welcome again.