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i think this is the first time i've cried in weeks. i don't know if that's normal and i'm just so used to crying all day, every day, or if it's a bad effect from the medication.
a guy i met from dawson and have been speaking to online just admitted to me that he likes me.
and i realized that this is exactly why i haven't made any friends in the past few years. the few ppl i've met have admitted the same thing, and either we dated and it went horribly wrong or i just avoided them altogether.
then i wondered what the hell is going on with geoff.
my godmother asked me today about him. of course the usual questions (nice? respectful? funny? cute? job? car? house? responsible?) and he matched everything that should be good in a boyfriend. then she asked "do you like him?"
she knows me too well.
i don't know. sometimes i'll be so excited about a date that i won't be able to think about anything else or even sit still for longer than 2 minutes. then an hour later, i won't even wanna go. or we'll be out, and i'll be having a blast. then 2 minutes later, i'll want to go home more than anything in the world.
i really don't think i'm ready for this. i knew i wouldn't be.
what have i gotten myself into? :(
a guy i met from dawson and have been speaking to online just admitted to me that he likes me.
and i realized that this is exactly why i haven't made any friends in the past few years. the few ppl i've met have admitted the same thing, and either we dated and it went horribly wrong or i just avoided them altogether.
then i wondered what the hell is going on with geoff.
my godmother asked me today about him. of course the usual questions (nice? respectful? funny? cute? job? car? house? responsible?) and he matched everything that should be good in a boyfriend. then she asked "do you like him?"
she knows me too well.
i don't know. sometimes i'll be so excited about a date that i won't be able to think about anything else or even sit still for longer than 2 minutes. then an hour later, i won't even wanna go. or we'll be out, and i'll be having a blast. then 2 minutes later, i'll want to go home more than anything in the world.
i really don't think i'm ready for this. i knew i wouldn't be.
what have i gotten myself into? :(