Standing at the Crossroads
Here I am, standing at what is undoubtedly a crossroad in my journey through life. I have kept something a near secret for over a week now, but now I am unsure of where to go.
Last week, I met A, a nice enough 24 year old boy in school becoming a teacher. I met him at a religion retreat and we chatted for what must have been at least six hours. He then gave me his number and I gave him mine.
Simple enough so far.
Then he starts texting me, every day, and the longer I talk to him, the more I appreciate his intellect, his taste in music and books, and his desire to make reading my textbooks as painless as possible. Seems like Mr. Right right now.
Then he asks me out, telling me that he is coming to my school in C and coming to hang out with me. I said yes.
This is when I screamed, undoubtedly letting my roommates know what had just occurred on Friday night.
This morning, I get asked by one of the chaplains at my school how everything is going with A (at this point in time, the only people who knew about him and I were my four roommates and the 1 person who introduced us). Considering three of my roommates were in the room at the time and only one of them suddenly found a urgent need to leave, I caught her and asked her if she told her. After her admission, I must admit that I have lost control over who now knows and who doesn't know.
I like control.
SO, before I get killed by k-san who would seriously kill me if I did not tell her this, I am writing this little journal update. I am seeing someone. He is VERY nice (aka nerdy, but not DFTBA nerdy...he will learn...). So far, I have found only two weak points which might make me iffy of him.
1) He's 24 and I KNOW THAT AGE IS JUST A NUMBER, BUT THAT MAKES HIM OLDER THAN MY SISTER!!!!
2) He's Lutheran, I am Roman Catholic.
I think with him, I am going to go one step at a time and think critically about him and take things EXTREMELY SLOW! Also, he has actually read the Gaston Leroux version of Phantom of the Opera.
Next cross road.
I am thinking about becoming a chaplain next year at my school, helping to organize and coordinate chapel services, soup supper, helping out with the community, etc.
One question on the application form has me slightly worried.
"What is your faith community and describe your involvement in your community."
First of all, I do go to church, about maybe three times a year. This is because the community is too large for my tastes and too many screaming children for me to truly enjoy the service.
Second of all, I practice my faith mostly by prayer and meditation on my own time. This way, the introverted me doesn't have to be told what to believe in, but I can still be considered Roman Catholic with my practices. I have gotten tired of hearing that homosexuality is a choice because I know that I did not choose to be bisexual. I did not choose to have a dad who is homophobic. I believe that the only important part of any faith story is your own connection with whatever you believe in. For some, it is simply a higher power, others it is Buddha, others Gaia. For me, it my connection to God, the holy Trinity, and Mary. That being said, I believe that atheism is fine as well as agnostic, however I believe that as long as I am not shoving my faith down your throat, you don't shove yours down mine. It's basic respect.
So, I don't have the strongest answer for what must be the make-it-or-break-it question on the form. For now, I think I will fill out the rest, and simply meditate on my answer for this question. Who knows if I am even going to hand it in.
In other news, there is an extremely high chance that I will be given solos, plural, for my tour to Hungary with my choir as I am one of two people who can hit a high B consistently, over and over again. For most Sopranos, being able to hit a Bb is an absolute must, but they always falter when they see the B natural.
Also, TFIOS was AMAZING!!! AND BLOODY BRILLIANT!!! and reminded me that I probably will never write something that amazing, ever...
Last week, I met A, a nice enough 24 year old boy in school becoming a teacher. I met him at a religion retreat and we chatted for what must have been at least six hours. He then gave me his number and I gave him mine.
Simple enough so far.
Then he starts texting me, every day, and the longer I talk to him, the more I appreciate his intellect, his taste in music and books, and his desire to make reading my textbooks as painless as possible. Seems like Mr. Right right now.
Then he asks me out, telling me that he is coming to my school in C and coming to hang out with me. I said yes.
This is when I screamed, undoubtedly letting my roommates know what had just occurred on Friday night.
This morning, I get asked by one of the chaplains at my school how everything is going with A (at this point in time, the only people who knew about him and I were my four roommates and the 1 person who introduced us). Considering three of my roommates were in the room at the time and only one of them suddenly found a urgent need to leave, I caught her and asked her if she told her. After her admission, I must admit that I have lost control over who now knows and who doesn't know.
I like control.
SO, before I get killed by k-san who would seriously kill me if I did not tell her this, I am writing this little journal update. I am seeing someone. He is VERY nice (aka nerdy, but not DFTBA nerdy...he will learn...). So far, I have found only two weak points which might make me iffy of him.
1) He's 24 and I KNOW THAT AGE IS JUST A NUMBER, BUT THAT MAKES HIM OLDER THAN MY SISTER!!!!
2) He's Lutheran, I am Roman Catholic.
I think with him, I am going to go one step at a time and think critically about him and take things EXTREMELY SLOW! Also, he has actually read the Gaston Leroux version of Phantom of the Opera.
Next cross road.
I am thinking about becoming a chaplain next year at my school, helping to organize and coordinate chapel services, soup supper, helping out with the community, etc.
One question on the application form has me slightly worried.
"What is your faith community and describe your involvement in your community."
First of all, I do go to church, about maybe three times a year. This is because the community is too large for my tastes and too many screaming children for me to truly enjoy the service.
Second of all, I practice my faith mostly by prayer and meditation on my own time. This way, the introverted me doesn't have to be told what to believe in, but I can still be considered Roman Catholic with my practices. I have gotten tired of hearing that homosexuality is a choice because I know that I did not choose to be bisexual. I did not choose to have a dad who is homophobic. I believe that the only important part of any faith story is your own connection with whatever you believe in. For some, it is simply a higher power, others it is Buddha, others Gaia. For me, it my connection to God, the holy Trinity, and Mary. That being said, I believe that atheism is fine as well as agnostic, however I believe that as long as I am not shoving my faith down your throat, you don't shove yours down mine. It's basic respect.
So, I don't have the strongest answer for what must be the make-it-or-break-it question on the form. For now, I think I will fill out the rest, and simply meditate on my answer for this question. Who knows if I am even going to hand it in.
In other news, there is an extremely high chance that I will be given solos, plural, for my tour to Hungary with my choir as I am one of two people who can hit a high B consistently, over and over again. For most Sopranos, being able to hit a Bb is an absolute must, but they always falter when they see the B natural.
Also, TFIOS was AMAZING!!! AND BLOODY BRILLIANT!!! and reminded me that I probably will never write something that amazing, ever...