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I'm so unfortunate. The worst thing that ever happen to me, was that God gave me a heart. Yep, you heard me right. God gave me a heart and it sucks. I wish I didn't have one, b/c then maybe I wouldn't hurt all the time, maybe i wouldn't always be thinking of everyone else, and maybe I wouldn't care so much. That's my problem, I'm sad b/c I care too much. Someone is unhappy, and I care, so I'm unhappy. One little word makes me care to much, one moment makes me hold someone dear, and it all may seem fine and dandy until I start caring, then guess what, it all blows up in my face. See the luckky people are the ones who have no heart. All they want is power or fame, and they usually get it b/c it's their decision, and the outcome only relies on them. While in my case, when i care, it doesn't just rely upon me, the other person has to be in it too. So i'm screwed b/c God gave me a heart. If I care about someone, I care, and that's that, b/c I have a heart, but if they don't care, it's no skin off their back, and i still get hurt. Why God did you give me a heart?! Why did you make me the one who always tries, who always hopes for the best, and still, still gets tripped at the finish line. Oh well, I guess it's b/c I care. Nice guys finish last right? Well it's only b/c we let the others pass so we can see their dreams fulfilled and see them happy, b/c we care. It is my curse and my forte. Why God did you give me a heart!