Newsflash
ok. Everything has done a complete 180 since yesterday. Me and Christina said we weren't mad at each other and we totally understand each other. I'm happy with my part...she's happy with her part.
BUT today in 2nd hour..Kabobel brings the whole thing up. How his "computer was on fire" last night. How people think that people don't deserve roles and that roles have been stolen from them.
Seriously, What did u hope to accomplish? We had taken initiative and cleared up all the miscommunication. We REALLY didn't need any help. And it DIDNT help. It just made everyone upset. But not with each other ..oh no..
So Kabobel has been reading my lj? Yeah. Dont read my lj. And if you..don't bring it into the class. IT's MY JOURNAL. I dont feel comfortable with a teacher reading about -my- private life. Yeah..I know that it is pretty much a public forum but I didn't think Kabobel would even care what I was saying in an online journal.
Well..I knew that he had read Ryan's..but never thought he'd read mine. So from NOW on all my entries that include anything about my feelings on choir or people in choir..or anything that one would find interesting..will be friends only.
I'm not going to sit in class and have a teacher make me feel like I'm some selfish little brat. I never said Christina stole my part. I never HAD the part. Im 17 years old. I felt frustrated and upset bc I felt that I had put in the time and effort to finally get something I -really really- wanted.n I bitched and moaned..I cried and took a nap..and in a day I GOT OVER IT!
I didn't bitch anyone out...I didn't spread rumors. I wrote in my journal what I was feeling at the moment. I didn't censor myself and I didn't write down all happy pretty thoughts. I was UPSET! I had a right to be upset. You cant tell me that it's wrong for me to feel a certain way, as long as I'm not hurting anyone, and then practically REPRIMAND me in front of the class. Yeah you didn't give names but that doesnt matter.
I've been a very faithful, dedicated choir student. I've put 400% into choir and drama. Ive never complained about how I'm never kept in ONE voice part. I hardly speak up about anything..but its my senior year and -I- have an opinion. My opinion is that I had watched all of these seniors get their chances and somehow felt that I had waited my turn. After looking at my emotional state yesterday..I've just moved on. I'm growing from the experience.
I'm actually really sad that instead of working on Regionals music...time was taken out to discuss how Kabobel knew all about this "online drama" or whatever..and how we shouldn't take things personally and blah blah.
Ya know what. I got over DT. I'm over the musical business. I just needed to time to really cool off and think. Maybe I was too rash to start ranting on my lj about how I was screwed over. But..I felt that way. And there are other people who got nonexistant parts that have proven themselves and probably should have been given another chance. I'm not even TALKING about myself now.
Yeah. Sometimes I feel like me and christina are forced to be like adversaries. Like it's some weird fight to the death or something. It SHOULDNT be that way bc I'm friends with Christina and I've known her for a long time.
I appreciate my friends saying I deserved the role bc it makes me feel loved. I cant go back and change anything and I have to accept that I dont have the role. Im channeling all of those feelings into the role I do have.
Anyways. I think that it's just sad that teachers take personal issues and bring them into the classroom. Only 4 or 5 people knew what was going on and we had all talked pretty much everything out. IT was NOT a class discussion and neither is my journal.
So this is to Kabobel. I don't really think it's fair of you to judge me on what I write down when I'm OBVIOUSLY upset. I don't think you should take my personal journal entries that have NOTHING to do with the choir class as a whole and address them as a class issue. I've never shown you anything but respect and have treated you with kindess. I've listened to you from day one..done what you have asked..and have even had very friendly conversations outside of class with you. I expect the same respect back. If I am upset with someone let me deal with it.
I'm totally there to support Christina and wish her all the luck in the world. I will have plenty of opportunities to prove myself on stage. The spring play is something I look forward to, for example.
Anywhoo kiddies REMEMBER
DONT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY...
BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD...
and don't create drama where there is none :)
P.S. Lol My mom is really mad about the thing in second hour so watch out!
BUT today in 2nd hour..Kabobel brings the whole thing up. How his "computer was on fire" last night. How people think that people don't deserve roles and that roles have been stolen from them.
Seriously, What did u hope to accomplish? We had taken initiative and cleared up all the miscommunication. We REALLY didn't need any help. And it DIDNT help. It just made everyone upset. But not with each other ..oh no..
So Kabobel has been reading my lj? Yeah. Dont read my lj. And if you..don't bring it into the class. IT's MY JOURNAL. I dont feel comfortable with a teacher reading about -my- private life. Yeah..I know that it is pretty much a public forum but I didn't think Kabobel would even care what I was saying in an online journal.
Well..I knew that he had read Ryan's..but never thought he'd read mine. So from NOW on all my entries that include anything about my feelings on choir or people in choir..or anything that one would find interesting..will be friends only.
I'm not going to sit in class and have a teacher make me feel like I'm some selfish little brat. I never said Christina stole my part. I never HAD the part. Im 17 years old. I felt frustrated and upset bc I felt that I had put in the time and effort to finally get something I -really really- wanted.n I bitched and moaned..I cried and took a nap..and in a day I GOT OVER IT!
I didn't bitch anyone out...I didn't spread rumors. I wrote in my journal what I was feeling at the moment. I didn't censor myself and I didn't write down all happy pretty thoughts. I was UPSET! I had a right to be upset. You cant tell me that it's wrong for me to feel a certain way, as long as I'm not hurting anyone, and then practically REPRIMAND me in front of the class. Yeah you didn't give names but that doesnt matter.
I've been a very faithful, dedicated choir student. I've put 400% into choir and drama. Ive never complained about how I'm never kept in ONE voice part. I hardly speak up about anything..but its my senior year and -I- have an opinion. My opinion is that I had watched all of these seniors get their chances and somehow felt that I had waited my turn. After looking at my emotional state yesterday..I've just moved on. I'm growing from the experience.
I'm actually really sad that instead of working on Regionals music...time was taken out to discuss how Kabobel knew all about this "online drama" or whatever..and how we shouldn't take things personally and blah blah.
Ya know what. I got over DT. I'm over the musical business. I just needed to time to really cool off and think. Maybe I was too rash to start ranting on my lj about how I was screwed over. But..I felt that way. And there are other people who got nonexistant parts that have proven themselves and probably should have been given another chance. I'm not even TALKING about myself now.
Yeah. Sometimes I feel like me and christina are forced to be like adversaries. Like it's some weird fight to the death or something. It SHOULDNT be that way bc I'm friends with Christina and I've known her for a long time.
I appreciate my friends saying I deserved the role bc it makes me feel loved. I cant go back and change anything and I have to accept that I dont have the role. Im channeling all of those feelings into the role I do have.
Anyways. I think that it's just sad that teachers take personal issues and bring them into the classroom. Only 4 or 5 people knew what was going on and we had all talked pretty much everything out. IT was NOT a class discussion and neither is my journal.
So this is to Kabobel. I don't really think it's fair of you to judge me on what I write down when I'm OBVIOUSLY upset. I don't think you should take my personal journal entries that have NOTHING to do with the choir class as a whole and address them as a class issue. I've never shown you anything but respect and have treated you with kindess. I've listened to you from day one..done what you have asked..and have even had very friendly conversations outside of class with you. I expect the same respect back. If I am upset with someone let me deal with it.
I'm totally there to support Christina and wish her all the luck in the world. I will have plenty of opportunities to prove myself on stage. The spring play is something I look forward to, for example.
Anywhoo kiddies REMEMBER
DONT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY...
BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD...
and don't create drama where there is none :)
P.S. Lol My mom is really mad about the thing in second hour so watch out!