Waiting for direction?!
First of all I'd like to apologise for the imminent nautical metaphors. They are terribly twee but I've been reading Conrad and it seems to work well given the way I'm feeling about things.
I've felt a bit at a loss for what to do with myself for some time now. There are vague plans in my mind about things I'd like to do, but I don't know where to start or indeed if once I got there I would really like it after all.
But last night I was talking to a friend, and she was saying how many things there were that she wanted to do and just not the time to do them all. I said at least you know what the things are! I told her I felt a bit adrift. But instead of saying, as is usual and as I expected, oh don't worry you'll think of something/you must have some ideas/what about x y z, she said that perhaps it was a good thing - I could just go where the wind took me! I hadn't really thought of it like that before. There seems to be a lot of pressure to have some kind of direction, to know where you intend to end up and so on - but she might be right. It's always more alarming and a bit frightening to do things out of the ordinary, and others find it difficult to understand, though that's never stopped me before. I just have to make sure that I'm really open to what might come along, and be quick to put the sails up when the wind rises!
I've felt a bit at a loss for what to do with myself for some time now. There are vague plans in my mind about things I'd like to do, but I don't know where to start or indeed if once I got there I would really like it after all.
But last night I was talking to a friend, and she was saying how many things there were that she wanted to do and just not the time to do them all. I said at least you know what the things are! I told her I felt a bit adrift. But instead of saying, as is usual and as I expected, oh don't worry you'll think of something/you must have some ideas/what about x y z, she said that perhaps it was a good thing - I could just go where the wind took me! I hadn't really thought of it like that before. There seems to be a lot of pressure to have some kind of direction, to know where you intend to end up and so on - but she might be right. It's always more alarming and a bit frightening to do things out of the ordinary, and others find it difficult to understand, though that's never stopped me before. I just have to make sure that I'm really open to what might come along, and be quick to put the sails up when the wind rises!