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I'm not happy with my life and I'm clueless as to redirect my path in a correct direction. I feel like I'm just floating along on the path that is paved FOR me. I'm not doing it myself anymore.
I really don't want college to end up the way high school did (although, it never could because the devil has moved on). I have good friends but I'm still not completely happy. There is still a lot missing and I'M NOT BEING NEGATIVE GOD DAMNIT THIS IS HOW IT IS, BLACK AND WHITE.
Ben is leaving soon and I don't think I'll be seeing him before he leaves. I guess that is a good thing but, I know it isn't.
Jon comes back on Saturday. That is a very good thing. I miss him.
I don't know when Brandon is coming back but I may or may not see him before school. I'm impartial to that.
Jess, I'll see her when I go back and that is also a very good thing (assuming her boyfriend stays away for awhile!). She is one of the few people at school who understands me.
Mitchell and I aren't talking and it's a bit strange. It's been a week. I refuse to call him because HE was the asshole that broke a promise and I need to start standing my ground instead of being so passive.
I'm in a constant state of missing someone but I'm not always sure who I'm missing.
My friends and family say that being so indenpendent isn't good for me but I see no other way that I can live.
I really don't want college to end up the way high school did (although, it never could because the devil has moved on). I have good friends but I'm still not completely happy. There is still a lot missing and I'M NOT BEING NEGATIVE GOD DAMNIT THIS IS HOW IT IS, BLACK AND WHITE.
Ben is leaving soon and I don't think I'll be seeing him before he leaves. I guess that is a good thing but, I know it isn't.
Jon comes back on Saturday. That is a very good thing. I miss him.
I don't know when Brandon is coming back but I may or may not see him before school. I'm impartial to that.
Jess, I'll see her when I go back and that is also a very good thing (assuming her boyfriend stays away for awhile!). She is one of the few people at school who understands me.
Mitchell and I aren't talking and it's a bit strange. It's been a week. I refuse to call him because HE was the asshole that broke a promise and I need to start standing my ground instead of being so passive.
I'm in a constant state of missing someone but I'm not always sure who I'm missing.
My friends and family say that being so indenpendent isn't good for me but I see no other way that I can live.