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school is done. i am done with school. the underlying anxiety of "i need to be doing something else" that has haunted me all the time for the past five years is slowly subsiding. i didnt walk in graduation. and i didnt really do any conventional kinds of celebrating... instead, ive been celebrating by finally allowing myself to be immersed in work. ive been working like a crazy person. all day, every day... i wasnt sick of it until i began realizing that this is the beginning of the rest of my life -- im slowly getting frustrated by having to work all the time. at first, it was really nice, but now it's beginning to drag on me. im trying not to stress out about anything... but it's so hard not to. there are all of these projects and gardens that need to get done and ready for spring... so much work... so much to do... oh well. just one day at a time... just one project at a time.
daniel has finally returned. im no longer living alone and im beginning to stress out about money. ahhh! i hate money more than anything. but it's all good. everything is going to be FINE.
ive been looking into schools recently and i have been toying with the idea of going to graduate school. doing so, would, of course, mean that i'll need to take a bunch of classes... science and math.... i dont think i could do that. but then there's the whole not wanting to put any more money into school thats just going to leave me hanging when im done there...
daniel has finally returned. im no longer living alone and im beginning to stress out about money. ahhh! i hate money more than anything. but it's all good. everything is going to be FINE.
ive been looking into schools recently and i have been toying with the idea of going to graduate school. doing so, would, of course, mean that i'll need to take a bunch of classes... science and math.... i dont think i could do that. but then there's the whole not wanting to put any more money into school thats just going to leave me hanging when im done there...