So I'm fat again...
You don't really realize yourself gaining weight, or you do but it never seems like a big deal, until one day you're standing in front of the mirror disgusted and you can't fit into your tight jeans AGAIN! Seriously, this happens every time I get into a relationship and feel comfortable. The only difference is, Michael is not going to leave me because I got fat. He says he doesn't notice a difference from when we first met (15 pounds!!!) and that I'm gorgeous and don't need to change a thing. You know what this means right??? I don't only need to lose 15 pounds...I need to lose at least 20. Maybe even 25. HE actually deserves it. I mean, I deserve it for myself too. I love fitting into those tight jeans and feeling confident every day. Every other day now I have a fat day and I hate it. I get so down on myself and I'm just so much happier when I'm skinnier.
So, I started going to the gym...again. Gonna work my way back up on the treadmill (only at two miles now). I'm aiming for Christmas time. Posting this on LJ makes it more legit, because you guys will see me at Christmas and say "awwww, she couldn't do it...:-(" so that means I have to. lol.
Wish me luck. <3
So, I started going to the gym...again. Gonna work my way back up on the treadmill (only at two miles now). I'm aiming for Christmas time. Posting this on LJ makes it more legit, because you guys will see me at Christmas and say "awwww, she couldn't do it...:-(" so that means I have to. lol.
Wish me luck. <3