crazy talk!
I have not left the house today, with the exception of a Sudafed run to CVS, in an attempt to get rid of this cold before adventures in Salem tomorrow (train rides and witches, who could ask for more?).
So my day has been spent sitting on the couch alternating between reading Gouverneurs de la rosee, grading, Sex & the City reruns, naps, chicken soup, and the ALCS.
This sedentary day is making me reflect on my plan(s) for next year, and for the 18th time I think I am changing my mind. if it ain't broke, don't fix it, ya know? Thing is, a lot of France in the past was about running away from a place I was dissatisfied with. I realized last year that my dissatisfaction was being unfairly applied to a whole country when in reality I was unhappy with specifics. I needed time in a major urban area to learn contentment in America, it seems. So why am I trying to mess with this? Honestly, do I really want to be an assistant again? I have been thinking about it a lot this week (Sarah & I did our presentation at the MF) and thinking about how hard it is going to be to take a step back in a lot of ways -- socially starting from scratch again, materially downsizing again, and professionally taking a HUGE step back after the teaching that I have been doing here. And after all, ENS is really supposed to be for my dissertation research...
So the question is, do I want to spend my Christmas vacation frantically applying to Ph.D. programs?
On verra bien. I conveniently already have an appointment set up with Prof J-C this week; I think she is someone who could give me an excellent perspective on this. Hooray for junior faculty.
So my day has been spent sitting on the couch alternating between reading Gouverneurs de la rosee, grading, Sex & the City reruns, naps, chicken soup, and the ALCS.
This sedentary day is making me reflect on my plan(s) for next year, and for the 18th time I think I am changing my mind. if it ain't broke, don't fix it, ya know? Thing is, a lot of France in the past was about running away from a place I was dissatisfied with. I realized last year that my dissatisfaction was being unfairly applied to a whole country when in reality I was unhappy with specifics. I needed time in a major urban area to learn contentment in America, it seems. So why am I trying to mess with this? Honestly, do I really want to be an assistant again? I have been thinking about it a lot this week (Sarah & I did our presentation at the MF) and thinking about how hard it is going to be to take a step back in a lot of ways -- socially starting from scratch again, materially downsizing again, and professionally taking a HUGE step back after the teaching that I have been doing here. And after all, ENS is really supposed to be for my dissertation research...
So the question is, do I want to spend my Christmas vacation frantically applying to Ph.D. programs?
On verra bien. I conveniently already have an appointment set up with Prof J-C this week; I think she is someone who could give me an excellent perspective on this. Hooray for junior faculty.