New York.
Not really sure of the point of this, guess im just venting in the hope i'll be able to sleep tonight.
After my best freind flunked out on me yet again iv'e desided to go on holiday in my own this year which means i get to go anywhere i want so im going to new york! I'm compleatly terrified as ive never done anything like this before but i really want to go (this possibly has something to do with my law and order svu obbsession). Iv'e never been to the us before or away on my own although i manedged the last year at uni by myself and i get this mental adrenalin rush everythime i think about it that makes me tremble slightly and my tummy goes all squidgy. Im staying in this kinda hostel / hotel thing so im hoping to meet some new people whille im away and i guess part of this rip is to convince my self that i can be the person who can do stuff on there own and be confident and make freind easly which is something ive alwayse stugelled with. i dont really see myself as that person but i kinda like the sound of her and would rather be freinds with her than the girl i see myself as at the moment. Also this is kind of a step towards one of my goals in life which is to move to new york after i graduate. cant wait.
going to go watch some criminal minds now to calm down although im reworking my way though the second season and im on distress so it may not help much.
After my best freind flunked out on me yet again iv'e desided to go on holiday in my own this year which means i get to go anywhere i want so im going to new york! I'm compleatly terrified as ive never done anything like this before but i really want to go (this possibly has something to do with my law and order svu obbsession). Iv'e never been to the us before or away on my own although i manedged the last year at uni by myself and i get this mental adrenalin rush everythime i think about it that makes me tremble slightly and my tummy goes all squidgy. Im staying in this kinda hostel / hotel thing so im hoping to meet some new people whille im away and i guess part of this rip is to convince my self that i can be the person who can do stuff on there own and be confident and make freind easly which is something ive alwayse stugelled with. i dont really see myself as that person but i kinda like the sound of her and would rather be freinds with her than the girl i see myself as at the moment. Also this is kind of a step towards one of my goals in life which is to move to new york after i graduate. cant wait.
going to go watch some criminal minds now to calm down although im reworking my way though the second season and im on distress so it may not help much.