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I've been really dissatisfied lately, about a lot of things. I wasn't ready for break to be over. I wasn't ready for the new semester to start. It felt like my entire break was spent working, I didn't get a real vacation. As much as I'd love to tell them that I can only work on weekends, I can't afford that.
I've missed a lot of class recently, too. And I'm not proud of myself, I actually just end up feeling guilty all day about it but...I have other things to do, you know? It's hard. I...I really would love to take a year off and just work. I mean that was the one thing I loved about break. When I came home from work I didn't have to write a paper or go straight to bed to get up for that early class. I was just done. I was so happy and carefree over break and now school is back in and I hate it. I mean, I've said it before but it feels like each semester it just keeps getting worse. I hate school. I'm an Education major and I hate school.
I need a break, yes already. I need a break. I wish I had the guts to just take a year off, work, save up, etc. But I know how everyone would react, and I know that everyone says if you take a year off you probably won't go back. It just sucks and I am so completely sick of all of it. I don't even know if this is what I want to do with my life anymore. Honestly. Which is probably part of the problem.
Damn it. I wish someone, anyone in my life, would talk to me about it.
I've missed a lot of class recently, too. And I'm not proud of myself, I actually just end up feeling guilty all day about it but...I have other things to do, you know? It's hard. I...I really would love to take a year off and just work. I mean that was the one thing I loved about break. When I came home from work I didn't have to write a paper or go straight to bed to get up for that early class. I was just done. I was so happy and carefree over break and now school is back in and I hate it. I mean, I've said it before but it feels like each semester it just keeps getting worse. I hate school. I'm an Education major and I hate school.
I need a break, yes already. I need a break. I wish I had the guts to just take a year off, work, save up, etc. But I know how everyone would react, and I know that everyone says if you take a year off you probably won't go back. It just sucks and I am so completely sick of all of it. I don't even know if this is what I want to do with my life anymore. Honestly. Which is probably part of the problem.
Damn it. I wish someone, anyone in my life, would talk to me about it.