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i'm contemplating some situations that i put myself in. i put myself into the wrong crowd, just to "fit in".. idk. i don't think i belong where i am. i'm sure many of you also agree. but i dont care anymore.
i gotta go to the Y.. i don't want to go and watch the kiddies. :: sigh ::
i'm prolly gonna spend the night at becca's wednesday night then go to open house with her. i miss her so much.
friday.. hmm.. still thinking about that. why do i make things so difficult that really shouldn't be???
i think i think wayyy too deeply into everything. i put too much thought into the simplest things. i dont know why i do this. but it bothers me. and lately its been bothering me even more because people are starting to point it out to me. it makes me feel even worst when people tell me things abuot myself that i already know.. but that just means.. that its more apparent to everyone than i ever thought it was.
next monday me and eli have actually "been together" for 5 months.. seems like a long time to me. well.. i guess out of me it wasn't really NOT EXPECTED.. but even to me.. for eli.. it wasn't expected at all that he could stay this long with me. or i could stay this long with him. i mean.. 5 months is close to 6 months.. and that's half of a year. idk if its just me or that seems like a long time..
molly's party. she actually invited me. idk if i should go or not. it could either be a waste of time because i'll be silent the entire time. or it could be good for me and i could actually try and conversate this time.. bc i didn't at the last one. i feel like i don't fit in there at all. i feel like i'm just invited bc eli was invited. i dont like that feeling. i dont know.
why do i have to be so insecure about everything?..
<3-Sophia
I can't wait until open house to see everyone.. that's quite sad.
i gotta go to the Y.. i don't want to go and watch the kiddies. :: sigh ::
i'm prolly gonna spend the night at becca's wednesday night then go to open house with her. i miss her so much.
friday.. hmm.. still thinking about that. why do i make things so difficult that really shouldn't be???
i think i think wayyy too deeply into everything. i put too much thought into the simplest things. i dont know why i do this. but it bothers me. and lately its been bothering me even more because people are starting to point it out to me. it makes me feel even worst when people tell me things abuot myself that i already know.. but that just means.. that its more apparent to everyone than i ever thought it was.
next monday me and eli have actually "been together" for 5 months.. seems like a long time to me. well.. i guess out of me it wasn't really NOT EXPECTED.. but even to me.. for eli.. it wasn't expected at all that he could stay this long with me. or i could stay this long with him. i mean.. 5 months is close to 6 months.. and that's half of a year. idk if its just me or that seems like a long time..
molly's party. she actually invited me. idk if i should go or not. it could either be a waste of time because i'll be silent the entire time. or it could be good for me and i could actually try and conversate this time.. bc i didn't at the last one. i feel like i don't fit in there at all. i feel like i'm just invited bc eli was invited. i dont like that feeling. i dont know.
why do i have to be so insecure about everything?..
<3-Sophia
I can't wait until open house to see everyone.. that's quite sad.