three reasons why we would be perfect together (and one reason not)
three reasons why we would be perfect together (and one reason not)
ft: yunho/boa (or any best-friends-pairing out there!); pg, 1015w
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// hana.
I understand you, you understand me. We understand each other, and let's be honest- the chances are good that we have always wanted to give us a try. I know for certain that you share the same sentiment as me. Don't try to fool me by telling me likewise; years of friendship has taught me that just one movement from you is enough for me to deduce what is running through your mind. It isn’t because you’re that easy to read, it’s because we’ve been together for so long, through thick and thin, that nothing can stop us from reading each other like a worn-out book. Your eyes, even when you’re not saying anything, speak volumes in my perspective.
Just one glance, and I’ll know what to say and what not to say.
And because of this, there will never be miscommunication between us. We would be able to avoid any form of conflicts, since naturally, all these years, we have been avoiding doing anything which may spark irritancy or set each other into a mode of annoyance. One of the many things we share in common is that we hate to upset each other - seeing you shed tears is still the scariest thing I have ever witnessed, because you’re normally so strong, and seeing you hurt like that inevitably hurts me too.
We would be perfect together, because I know you will never make me cry. Because you know I will never make you cry, too. We will always have equal efforts to make each other happy, that we would take turns to compromise when either of us gets cranky. We have such protective instincts for each other that nothing will ever stop us from making sure we’re both alright, that we’re both happy.
And I think, if we are together, we will exactly be that.
Alright, and happy.
// dul.
We are comfortable together - because we already know how to act and be around each other. Do we have to pretend to find for clothes to wear if we are to go out together? We don’t have to, because you’ve seen me before in all the clothes I have in my wardrobe, and I’ve seen you before with all your clothes as well-even the ones you find hidden under your bed after weeks of wondering where they’ve disappeared to. The ugliest and most mismatched outfits, we’ve seen them all.
We wouldn't even need to worry on what to do during dates, because, if you think about it, sans the nervousness and going first base with each other, we have pretty much gone on hundreds of dates already.
Makeups and perfumes, colognes and hair gel-we don’t even have to worry about looking perfect when we meet up. We’ve both already seen each other without any of those beautifiers, all the imperfections on our faces, all the sweat on our bodies, the mosquito bites on our arms and legs, the grease and mess on our hairs-we’ve seen them all.
Will you believe me if I told you I like you best when you’re not trying to impress anybody? That I like you best when you acknowledge all your flaws, when you’re just…you? Would you believe me?
(I have never asked you that, because I already know the answer.)
//set.
The fact that you’re my best friend is enough to seal the qualities of you being the perfect boyfriend.
After all, you’re the one who sits beside me and listens to my rant all night about stuffs that don't really matter. You're the one I share drinks with at the bar, the one who knows secrets I have kept hidden from everyone else. You're the one whose hands I've tightly held when I needed warmth, the one whose shoulder I’ve leaned and cried on. You're the one who wipes my tears away, who teases me on how ugly I look when I cry (and who dares to, but you?), who embraces me and supports me like a pillar from behind.
You're the one who can read my soul and tell me things I do not even know about myself, things that I am unaware I say, or do, or have.
You’re the one I can always smile at and receive a smile back in return-because you’re the person I can depend on with just about anything in the world.
Do you understand now why we would be perfect together?
// il.
Despite all that, why are we still not together, then? Why haven’t we crossed the line we’ve invisibly drawn between us, or remove this mere title-slash-label we have bestowed upon ourselves?
The fact that we know each other, that we are comfortable together, that we have endless late night talks are exactly why we are not perfect together- because we know each other far too well, because we are too comfortable together.
Because we only have each other.
We fix each other's heart; so who is going to fix them if they're broken at the same time by the person we depend upon to heal the heartaches, to ease the wounds?
We can spend hours just talking and being around one another; so what are we going to do if we can no longer stay in the same room without the atmosphere becoming awkward? Who are we going to go to when we need someone to talk to?
Because to me, you are my whole universe. I've lost someone who was once my whole universe too, and albeit how hard I try to forget the memories we shared, I cannot.
And that is why, as perfect as we can be if we are together, I cannot risk losing you. I cannot afford waking up to broken memories or to yearn for something once mine but never will be mine anymore.
I will never be able to go through that amount of pain again. Not when I love you this much.
(and that is exactly why we will never be perfect together
- because I love you too damn much.)
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a/n: I wanted to write this ever since I read kirakirashahida's Three in One and kurdoodle's Five Ways to Break Up With Jung Soojung. Except, unlike theirs, mine...doesn't...end...happy. /bricked
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