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I hate movies.
I hate that feeling that you get after a good movie that the world isn't real. That feeling that everything you know is gone. I hate that. I hate the emotions that movies generate. I hate feeling sad for someone that doesn't exist. I hate feeling depressed because of something that didn't happen. The very thought of a good movie just boils my blood, because the key factor that differentiates "good" movies from "bad" movies is whether it invokes feelings and how it does so. A "good" movie could either encourage a familiar emotion or manufacture a new one entirely. Manufactured emotion is what scares me the most, freaks the living fuck out of me. if a movie is making you feel something entirely different from anything ever before, something people themselves would not be able to invoke, I find that frightening.
I hate being fucking sensitive. I hate feeling sympathy or empathy or apathy or anything the director or producer or writer wants me to feel. I hate being manipulatable. I hate being the audience. I hate how art is science. I hate how science is art. I really really don't like movies.
I hate when you're coming to the end of a good movie. fifteen minutes. twenty minutes before it's over. everything is wrapping up. and in parades your parents. with guests. you're out of it. you're wasted on artificial sentiment and you don't know how to respond. they've all been drinking. you're just drunk.
I hate college classes that tell you how to connect with your audience. I hate when people tell you how to write. how to think. how to act. I hate grammar. I think the rules destroy the creativity trying to build coherency.
I don't think coherency is worth it.
Honestly if you don't get anything at all but still act like you do and talk like you do it won't matter you'll still be my best friend. I won't know the difference.
I don't think enough people have figured out that lieing is not a bad way to live your life, and in fact it's a very convinient way.
I mean it. without making any jokes about politicians, lawyers, realtors, or teachers, I think that more people in this world should shy away from the truth for the betterment of mankind.
god knows the movie industry is doing it. the media is doing it. all the cool kids. everyone else.
fuck. I'm doing it.
I hate taking off and never being able to come back down to earth.
I'm in a daze. A tired, movie induced stupor.
A passion high.
I fucking killed my passion, and yet it comes back to fucking haunt me whenever I have to watch a fucking movie and it pisses me off like nothing fucking else.
it's the most disturbing thing to ever have.
I hate waking up from media absorption, broken up every fifteen minutes just to be shot up with commercials, I hate waking up from that and not having an identity.
not remembering who the fuck I am.
not knowing whether I liken myself to the main character, or if I'm nothing like him or her.
I like knowing who I am. I'm very easily disoriented.
where are you? I miss you. I managed my way online and you weren't there.
my computer is finally working though.
I like being a musician, because music doesn't have to make people empathize to be good.
in other words. sucky music can still be considered good.
which is why I bought a bass guitar and not a camcorder.
in short, I hate movies because I suck at life.
p.s. there's probably a senior prom party going on right now with lots of drugs and sam shapiro laughing like a mdaman. a wheezy madman.
I hate that feeling that you get after a good movie that the world isn't real. That feeling that everything you know is gone. I hate that. I hate the emotions that movies generate. I hate feeling sad for someone that doesn't exist. I hate feeling depressed because of something that didn't happen. The very thought of a good movie just boils my blood, because the key factor that differentiates "good" movies from "bad" movies is whether it invokes feelings and how it does so. A "good" movie could either encourage a familiar emotion or manufacture a new one entirely. Manufactured emotion is what scares me the most, freaks the living fuck out of me. if a movie is making you feel something entirely different from anything ever before, something people themselves would not be able to invoke, I find that frightening.
I hate being fucking sensitive. I hate feeling sympathy or empathy or apathy or anything the director or producer or writer wants me to feel. I hate being manipulatable. I hate being the audience. I hate how art is science. I hate how science is art. I really really don't like movies.
I hate when you're coming to the end of a good movie. fifteen minutes. twenty minutes before it's over. everything is wrapping up. and in parades your parents. with guests. you're out of it. you're wasted on artificial sentiment and you don't know how to respond. they've all been drinking. you're just drunk.
I hate college classes that tell you how to connect with your audience. I hate when people tell you how to write. how to think. how to act. I hate grammar. I think the rules destroy the creativity trying to build coherency.
I don't think coherency is worth it.
Honestly if you don't get anything at all but still act like you do and talk like you do it won't matter you'll still be my best friend. I won't know the difference.
I don't think enough people have figured out that lieing is not a bad way to live your life, and in fact it's a very convinient way.
I mean it. without making any jokes about politicians, lawyers, realtors, or teachers, I think that more people in this world should shy away from the truth for the betterment of mankind.
god knows the movie industry is doing it. the media is doing it. all the cool kids. everyone else.
fuck. I'm doing it.
I hate taking off and never being able to come back down to earth.
I'm in a daze. A tired, movie induced stupor.
A passion high.
I fucking killed my passion, and yet it comes back to fucking haunt me whenever I have to watch a fucking movie and it pisses me off like nothing fucking else.
it's the most disturbing thing to ever have.
I hate waking up from media absorption, broken up every fifteen minutes just to be shot up with commercials, I hate waking up from that and not having an identity.
not remembering who the fuck I am.
not knowing whether I liken myself to the main character, or if I'm nothing like him or her.
I like knowing who I am. I'm very easily disoriented.
where are you? I miss you. I managed my way online and you weren't there.
my computer is finally working though.
I like being a musician, because music doesn't have to make people empathize to be good.
in other words. sucky music can still be considered good.
which is why I bought a bass guitar and not a camcorder.
in short, I hate movies because I suck at life.
p.s. there's probably a senior prom party going on right now with lots of drugs and sam shapiro laughing like a mdaman. a wheezy madman.