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So yea...life sucks!!! I dont understand how I went from going out every night to never going out at all!!! Just cuz I got a job dont mean I cant do anything people!!!!!!!! I just get so frustrated when people that are supposed to be friends call me when they need something, and then get mad when I cant run to them!!!! Im sorry but if the only time I hear from you EVER is when YOU need something or something goes wrong in YOUR life then I no longer consider you to be a friend at all and dont expect the phone to get answered when you read this and decide oh well maybe I should call to say whats up...I DONT FUCKING CARE NO MORE...as hard as that is for me to say, because my friends have always been so important to me!!!! I honestly have like 4 real friends anymore!!! I hate it!!!! Im sorry if the few friends that might read this take it the wrong way, but I am so stressed out right now that I cry myself to sleep every night...the reason for this is because I have no one to talk to about anything no more!!!! With the exception of a few IMs from Manny!!! You are not included in this post Manny because even from a million miles away you seem to care more than the people that are right here!!! Anyway...I just dont know what the hell to do no more!!! I keep trying to make things better for me and I always end up making things worse in the end!!! And just so everyone knows why Im so angry about everything, my family is falling apart!! My great grandma is on her death bed and she is the backbone of my family...without her 90% of my family would never speak to eachother!!! The funeral is being held in Virginia when the time comes, and my work dont want to give me the time off to go!! So chances are I am going to lose the one thing in my life that I actually like right now!! I really like my job, and this sucks cuz I am NOT going to miss my grandmothers funeral for anything!! My probation officer can be a dick if he wants and violate me for leaving state, and I just dont care!!! Why is it that when thing are really good there is still something that is bad, but when things are really bad there is no good?? I know to some of you, my problems seem like nothing, but when problems are all you have, then they are everything!!! Sorry to bother anyone who reads this, but I had to get it out there!!! And to all of you who will no longer be getting they're phone calls answered...I wish you the best in your future!! We have had a lot of fun in the past, but things change, people change!!