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I think right now, I've got quite a handful to say since I haven't around livejournal for like-- ages. I never even posted anything else than first-ever published EXO fic I've ever written so it definitely feels good to be back.
Life has been quite too much for me lately. I've experienced a huge turmoil of crazy emotions, ranging to highest among high to the lowest among low. What's scary is that sometimes both extremes just had to happen in the same day. That is the reason why, sometimes, I'm afraid to be way too happy. because my day might end up...crappy.
I'm trying to keep myself busy to pry off bad thoughts but I was wrong. As I kept myself busy with school and a whole lot of other things, I didn't know that I was actually in for another long rollercosater ride of emotions-- which is actually worse than what I had ever felt before. Oh well, I guess now I'm fine. My life's less of a drama now. All I have left to do is graduate from college, get a job and get a life.
Sounds easy?
Think Again.
To even say that right now, I'm feeling sad, is an understatement. It's gone up to a point where I dread to see the sunshine because the sun shining means that I had to get my ass off my bed and start living.
You ask me why I dread to see the sun rising and to face reality?
Because the world seem so much better in my dreams and I'd love to continue dreaming.
Oh well maybe I should get used to living a crappy life and enjoy it in any way that I can.
Appreciate little things, be thankful everyday and well, just be awesome-- be yourself.
I CAN DO THIS!