That was just a dream: to try, cry, why, try, that was just a dream...
Okay, if you guys don't watch Rock Star: Supernova, I understand, but I suggest that you download this week's performance episode just to listen to/watch Ryan Star's piano version of "Losing My Religion." I've liked him throughout the whole competition, but never really considered him a true contender - he's hot and has a great voice, but hasn't been incredible yet, ya know? I thought the favorites to win (and they probably still are the favorites, betting-wise) were Lukas, Dhilana and Storm. But, fuck me, Ryan Star's piano version of "Losing My Religion" is one of the best performances - if not the best - I've ever seen in my life. It is the only performance throughout this entire (and any other) competition that I just really wanted to keep going for the entire song - and more. I think that fact speaks for itself. So, I'm imploring all you people to go and download it, just so you can see a fucking kickass performance for yourself.
Now I want him to win - and for actual reasons other than how hot he is. ;-)
In other news, since I'm on here I might as well do an actual update, right?
I have absolutely no motivation to write my dissertation. I'm so disappointed with the whole program and everything, that I could give a shit about writing it and finishing, but I know I have to since my parents paid for this school, so I'll get it done, I'm sure.
Also, I really want to stay here after school really ends and get a job, but I don't think it's feasible (visa-wise) and it's probably not the best idea, anyways; if I stayed, I'd want things with Paul to either go to the next level (i.e. a real relationship) or to completely end and I'm not sure I'd really be strong enough to completely end it and still be happy here. So it's probably a good thing that it's pretty much not possible for me to stay - it'll make ending things that much easier. Blah, I hate thinking about that, though. :-( I'm going to be so sad when I have to leave him - it makes me unhappy just thinking about it. :-(
I looked at a bunch of job openings in Nashville last night and right now there's at least 7 or 8 job openings that I am qualified (if not over-qualified) for and within the realm of what I want to do. So that's good and hopefully that means that by the time I'm ready to move there (since that's where I'll most likely go after graduation) even more jobs will be available and I won't have to take a total shit one just to get by. Ugh, we'll see. I so don't want to deal with this grown-up shit, you know? Why can't Paul be rich and totally want to support me forever? haha
Anyways, hope everyone's doing okay! Laters!
P.S. The link to the YouTube video of that performance is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UENIqSWdlzg&search=ryan%20star
You may think I hyped it too much, but I think it fucking lives up to it and Supernova agrees with me, bitches!! haha, anyways I think it rocks - no, I think it more than rocks. So check it out.
Now I want him to win - and for actual reasons other than how hot he is. ;-)
In other news, since I'm on here I might as well do an actual update, right?
I have absolutely no motivation to write my dissertation. I'm so disappointed with the whole program and everything, that I could give a shit about writing it and finishing, but I know I have to since my parents paid for this school, so I'll get it done, I'm sure.
Also, I really want to stay here after school really ends and get a job, but I don't think it's feasible (visa-wise) and it's probably not the best idea, anyways; if I stayed, I'd want things with Paul to either go to the next level (i.e. a real relationship) or to completely end and I'm not sure I'd really be strong enough to completely end it and still be happy here. So it's probably a good thing that it's pretty much not possible for me to stay - it'll make ending things that much easier. Blah, I hate thinking about that, though. :-( I'm going to be so sad when I have to leave him - it makes me unhappy just thinking about it. :-(
I looked at a bunch of job openings in Nashville last night and right now there's at least 7 or 8 job openings that I am qualified (if not over-qualified) for and within the realm of what I want to do. So that's good and hopefully that means that by the time I'm ready to move there (since that's where I'll most likely go after graduation) even more jobs will be available and I won't have to take a total shit one just to get by. Ugh, we'll see. I so don't want to deal with this grown-up shit, you know? Why can't Paul be rich and totally want to support me forever? haha
Anyways, hope everyone's doing okay! Laters!
P.S. The link to the YouTube video of that performance is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UENIqSWdlzg&search=ryan%20star
You may think I hyped it too much, but I think it fucking lives up to it and Supernova agrees with me, bitches!! haha, anyways I think it rocks - no, I think it more than rocks. So check it out.