extinguish everything...
i woke up late again today. why does half asleep me ignore my alarm clock?! i have to wake up on time tomorrow. i have a 10:30am interview at tower records. i'm excited and nervous. i'd love to have that job.
i went to dinner with my mom and stepdad tonight. i'm definitely going to GCC in january. my mom is hard set on it. we're going to start college together. she's going to go for interior design, but she'll be taking night classes. i'm still excited. i don't know what the hell i'd do with a degree in political science, though. i don't want to be a governor or a senator or anything like that. i'll have to research it more. i've gotten better at the whole research thing. i don't have garrett around to just tell me the answers. i kind of miss it, but i'm learning a lot more.
after dinner, i went and saw andy at his new apartment. it's a really nice place. i love the floor plan of it. it was great seeing him again. i love the relationship we have. i've known him since first grade and i just love that through all these years and all the time we've spent apart, we're still friends and we still get along great.
i'm really glad that things didn't end horribly with garrett and i. i've seen some pretty harsh breakups lately and i'm just glad that we still sort of get along and don't hate each other. at least i don't think he hates me.
my little brother, ian, has his first JV football game next thursday. it's a home game so i'll be going back to sunrise. it's gonna be weird, but i can't wait to see him play. i'm so proud of him. he's so smart and such a good kid, i love him to death.
jamie and i played with pond scum this afternoon.
today was a good day.
i'm going to try and pretend like tomorrow isn't what it would've been. just thinking about it makes my heart race. fuck. it's getting easier. i swear it is.
EDIT: yeah, i was wrong. it's not getting any easier. i'm tired of not being important to people that are important to me. i think that might be the worst feeling.
i went to dinner with my mom and stepdad tonight. i'm definitely going to GCC in january. my mom is hard set on it. we're going to start college together. she's going to go for interior design, but she'll be taking night classes. i'm still excited. i don't know what the hell i'd do with a degree in political science, though. i don't want to be a governor or a senator or anything like that. i'll have to research it more. i've gotten better at the whole research thing. i don't have garrett around to just tell me the answers. i kind of miss it, but i'm learning a lot more.
after dinner, i went and saw andy at his new apartment. it's a really nice place. i love the floor plan of it. it was great seeing him again. i love the relationship we have. i've known him since first grade and i just love that through all these years and all the time we've spent apart, we're still friends and we still get along great.
i'm really glad that things didn't end horribly with garrett and i. i've seen some pretty harsh breakups lately and i'm just glad that we still sort of get along and don't hate each other. at least i don't think he hates me.
my little brother, ian, has his first JV football game next thursday. it's a home game so i'll be going back to sunrise. it's gonna be weird, but i can't wait to see him play. i'm so proud of him. he's so smart and such a good kid, i love him to death.
jamie and i played with pond scum this afternoon.
today was a good day.
i'm going to try and pretend like tomorrow isn't what it would've been. just thinking about it makes my heart race. fuck. it's getting easier. i swear it is.
EDIT: yeah, i was wrong. it's not getting any easier. i'm tired of not being important to people that are important to me. i think that might be the worst feeling.