nobody told me it would hurt soo bad
Well horriable night if you cant tell from my last entry...i kinda did flipp out a lil bit too much but i guess i really needed to get some things out..good thing i did though..well i ended up not going to bed till 4..then i woke up at 8:30 for somereason..soo i decided to clean my house because i needed to get some things out still and cleaning always calms me down..and it makes me happy because im a neat freak--mostly about my room though-well i cleaned till like 10:30..and then decided to get online..and i talked to brandon...and my bffae' that i missed soo much katlyn...: ) miss the old days..you, rachael, me ashley and for awile lindsey....we all like grew apart..i donno we deff. need to hang out sometime soon : ) well then i got a shower and now im just sitting here thinking which i have been doing alot these days now..for some reason i was thinking about matt today..upsetting but yeah..i still find myself thinking about him..because he was part of my life for like 5 years...hes going to be having a kid soon : ) i hope hes happy though...i have to say i dooo miss him and even brandy...me and brandy used to be soo close but really i dont know what happend..she got a b.f and i just got tired of always being over there..ill have to go visit them soon : ) because i doo miss my other family..well today im going to a baseball game : ) all by myself ohh well i wanna goo..and afterward i believe im going to hang out with sara and gina and all themmm like i have been latly : ) i tried to call alisha today because she said that she needed to come and get some of her clothes but no one picked up...well im going to go and try some new things out with my hairr because im bored...