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fuck. time couldn't go by any faster
well summers approaching and its just hitting me that everythings going to be completely different. & that sucks. actually sucks is an understatement
sams going to college! college man thats crazy & i still have three more years to go after that. i feel so far behind, i guess thats what i get for being young.
i dunno. just trying to enjoy life and sit back & relax but thats not an easy thing to do after you realize this whole time all you'v been doing is sitting back and relaxing dont get me wrong i love my life i love everything about it but i guess i just feel like if i just sit back then nothings gonna come my way and thats just how its gonna be..
& i think the reason for this is that i am so much younger. its no ones fault but this is what everyone was worried about. i mean everyones going away and here i am just doing my thing, but its not my thing anymore because my "thing" is being with everyone else, kind of like i relied on my friends to always be there. obviously they'll always be there but its almost like i use other people as an escape from everything i hate. everything was running smooth until now. i dunno i guess i'll just figure it out when the time comes, when everyones actually gone and i'm here like oh shit andrea you better think about making new friends cause your gonna be pretty damn lonely. but you know what the problem with that is, it would be like replacing the people that are already in my life, and i can't even imagine that i mean i do really have the best friends in the world that could never be replaced so if it ever came to that, to me trying to make new friends its gonna be like im gonna expect them to be like sam and everyone else and thats not fair to anyone,lets jsut face it my friends couldnt even be replaced but im rambling now.
enjoy.
well summers approaching and its just hitting me that everythings going to be completely different. & that sucks. actually sucks is an understatement
sams going to college! college man thats crazy & i still have three more years to go after that. i feel so far behind, i guess thats what i get for being young.
i dunno. just trying to enjoy life and sit back & relax but thats not an easy thing to do after you realize this whole time all you'v been doing is sitting back and relaxing dont get me wrong i love my life i love everything about it but i guess i just feel like if i just sit back then nothings gonna come my way and thats just how its gonna be..
& i think the reason for this is that i am so much younger. its no ones fault but this is what everyone was worried about. i mean everyones going away and here i am just doing my thing, but its not my thing anymore because my "thing" is being with everyone else, kind of like i relied on my friends to always be there. obviously they'll always be there but its almost like i use other people as an escape from everything i hate. everything was running smooth until now. i dunno i guess i'll just figure it out when the time comes, when everyones actually gone and i'm here like oh shit andrea you better think about making new friends cause your gonna be pretty damn lonely. but you know what the problem with that is, it would be like replacing the people that are already in my life, and i can't even imagine that i mean i do really have the best friends in the world that could never be replaced so if it ever came to that, to me trying to make new friends its gonna be like im gonna expect them to be like sam and everyone else and thats not fair to anyone,lets jsut face it my friends couldnt even be replaced but im rambling now.
enjoy.