The itinerant wombat will paddle upstream today
It's zombie day! The day when you only get three hours of sleep and have to sustain yourself on it for a whole school day full of rough academic classes! Zombie day! As you might imagine, I had trouble sleeping last night. Hell, I have had trouble sleeping almost every night for the past few months. I do believe it is because I have always had insomnia to some extent. It is so hard for me to fall asleep. Either that, or I just do not feel like falling asleep. Quite problematic.
Perhaps it would be a grand idea to construct a device which will knock me unconscious when I am tossing and turning in bed...
No, that would be a terrible idea. I would just wake up feeling worse than before. I have this suspicion that a lot of my trouble sleeping has to do with living in a place which only provides me with stress (reason: brother), but I will not go into that.
Off of this depressing topic and onto something more interesting. I only started dozing off at the end of my last class of the day anyway, and we were watching a video so it did not even matter that much.
I did the last step of applying for graduation today. I already applied for graduation in January, but today I had to apply for my concentration in my major. The Human services cluster of psychology. I worked my ass off super extra in order to achieve this concentration. It might as well have been another major. The sad thing is that it probably will be worth less than another major or even a minor. The great thing is that I do not care. I feel great having this feat accomplished. It also puts me one step closer to achieving my hopes of getting to graduate school.
Oh, I have not mentioned this tidbit, have I? I have decided what I want to do. I was adrift for awhile, not quite sure of what I wanted to do with my life. Teaching, media, grad school, financial services, maniacal battletoad ready for combat; I considered it all for myself. The funny part is that what I decided upon is what I started with years ago. I still want to pursue clinical psychology, and I still want to work with adolescents with mood disorders. My dream from years ago is still and now especially is my dream today. This is not going to be an easy dream to accomplish. It is not even going to be hard. It is going to be Momo Must Die mode, to rip off on of my favorite games of all time (Devil May Cry - Dante Must Die mode). I still do not know where I want to go. I still have not taken my GRE's. However, that is okay right now. I want to take a break from school. Nay, I have to.
To go straight from undergrad to grad with no break would cause me to burn out. I know this to be true. There is no controversy there. It is damn near fact. I am going to do a better course, which is take a year off. Between now and when I graduate though, I need to, at the very least, figure out which schools I want to go to to study my intended program. I know that my grades are not incredulous. I am, by no means, a straight A student. I have somewhere around a 3.2 gpa, which is nice. However, it seems like just about every other psych(o) student applying to grad schools have much higher 3's, like 3.7 or 3.8. Clearly, I will have to rely much more upon my charming good lucks to seduce the chair of whichever department I wish to dedicate myself to and get myself in that way. I know, it is a difficult and long path I have ahead of my, and there is much manipulation of the soul to go through for this...
Alas, if only that worked. It would make things easier. If anything, I will ultimately dedicate myself to learning everything I can possibly learn about my subject area. Study all the research, read books on it, etc. In truth, this is my plan. If I want to become good at this and good for this, I will dedicate myself to that path. I think I should start with one of my textbooks on adolescence and then go to town on the library and research port of UMBC. Truly exciting.
I have enjoyed my writing in this journal for today. It made me feel even better. For now, I am going to clean up my room a bit and then sleep on my bed. It will net me a full night's rest and an extra point to my Charisma characteristic. Goodnight Lads and Laddies. Sweet Dreams.
As a sidenote, why the hell is there not an invigorated mood? That is exactly the mood I am in right now!
Perhaps it would be a grand idea to construct a device which will knock me unconscious when I am tossing and turning in bed...
No, that would be a terrible idea. I would just wake up feeling worse than before. I have this suspicion that a lot of my trouble sleeping has to do with living in a place which only provides me with stress (reason: brother), but I will not go into that.
Off of this depressing topic and onto something more interesting. I only started dozing off at the end of my last class of the day anyway, and we were watching a video so it did not even matter that much.
I did the last step of applying for graduation today. I already applied for graduation in January, but today I had to apply for my concentration in my major. The Human services cluster of psychology. I worked my ass off super extra in order to achieve this concentration. It might as well have been another major. The sad thing is that it probably will be worth less than another major or even a minor. The great thing is that I do not care. I feel great having this feat accomplished. It also puts me one step closer to achieving my hopes of getting to graduate school.
Oh, I have not mentioned this tidbit, have I? I have decided what I want to do. I was adrift for awhile, not quite sure of what I wanted to do with my life. Teaching, media, grad school, financial services, maniacal battletoad ready for combat; I considered it all for myself. The funny part is that what I decided upon is what I started with years ago. I still want to pursue clinical psychology, and I still want to work with adolescents with mood disorders. My dream from years ago is still and now especially is my dream today. This is not going to be an easy dream to accomplish. It is not even going to be hard. It is going to be Momo Must Die mode, to rip off on of my favorite games of all time (Devil May Cry - Dante Must Die mode). I still do not know where I want to go. I still have not taken my GRE's. However, that is okay right now. I want to take a break from school. Nay, I have to.
To go straight from undergrad to grad with no break would cause me to burn out. I know this to be true. There is no controversy there. It is damn near fact. I am going to do a better course, which is take a year off. Between now and when I graduate though, I need to, at the very least, figure out which schools I want to go to to study my intended program. I know that my grades are not incredulous. I am, by no means, a straight A student. I have somewhere around a 3.2 gpa, which is nice. However, it seems like just about every other psych(o) student applying to grad schools have much higher 3's, like 3.7 or 3.8. Clearly, I will have to rely much more upon my charming good lucks to seduce the chair of whichever department I wish to dedicate myself to and get myself in that way. I know, it is a difficult and long path I have ahead of my, and there is much manipulation of the soul to go through for this...
Alas, if only that worked. It would make things easier. If anything, I will ultimately dedicate myself to learning everything I can possibly learn about my subject area. Study all the research, read books on it, etc. In truth, this is my plan. If I want to become good at this and good for this, I will dedicate myself to that path. I think I should start with one of my textbooks on adolescence and then go to town on the library and research port of UMBC. Truly exciting.
I have enjoyed my writing in this journal for today. It made me feel even better. For now, I am going to clean up my room a bit and then sleep on my bed. It will net me a full night's rest and an extra point to my Charisma characteristic. Goodnight Lads and Laddies. Sweet Dreams.
As a sidenote, why the hell is there not an invigorated mood? That is exactly the mood I am in right now!