Who needs drugs when you can trip your own wiring?
Schizophrenia is a psychotic disorder marked by some or all of these symptoms: delusions, hallucinations, incoherent word associations, inappropriate emotions, or lack of emotions. It is characterized by serious disturbances of thought and perception which cannot be attributed to brain damage. A separation or loosening of associations, as between feelings and thoughts, is believed to underlie the unusual behavior that is exhibited.
Psychotic Break
An extreme mental disturbance that involves an actual break with reality, involving distorted perceptions of reality and irrational behavior, often accompanied by hallucinations and delusions. The disturbance may have either phychological or organic causes. Childhood schizophrenia and autism are forms of psychosis.
I looked out the window to the black form of a mountain, at least, the void in the sky that a mountain occupied earlier in the day. I wanted to disappear into a black void under the tint of moonlight like it did. Maybe I already had, and didn't notice. I couldn't see my own hands.
I've given up on too much. Compromised myself far too much.
I barely recognize myself anymore, what's left of me.
Conversations have become mute repititions of "yeahs," and "uh huhs."
I know I have this ability to draw things well. I compose music, I have a lot of music recorded on mine and my roommate's computer.
But I haven't contributed shit to the world. No, really, I haven't. Maybe criticism and entertainment value, but nothing significant.
Not feeling sorry for myself.
Not feeling anything, really.
Not bitterness, not cynicism.
All is well and everything is destroyed, and it's kind of pretty that way.
I think I have reached the steely-cold granite plane of American Nirvana.
-Damaged
Psychotic Break
An extreme mental disturbance that involves an actual break with reality, involving distorted perceptions of reality and irrational behavior, often accompanied by hallucinations and delusions. The disturbance may have either phychological or organic causes. Childhood schizophrenia and autism are forms of psychosis.
I looked out the window to the black form of a mountain, at least, the void in the sky that a mountain occupied earlier in the day. I wanted to disappear into a black void under the tint of moonlight like it did. Maybe I already had, and didn't notice. I couldn't see my own hands.
I've given up on too much. Compromised myself far too much.
I barely recognize myself anymore, what's left of me.
Conversations have become mute repititions of "yeahs," and "uh huhs."
I know I have this ability to draw things well. I compose music, I have a lot of music recorded on mine and my roommate's computer.
But I haven't contributed shit to the world. No, really, I haven't. Maybe criticism and entertainment value, but nothing significant.
Not feeling sorry for myself.
Not feeling anything, really.
Not bitterness, not cynicism.
All is well and everything is destroyed, and it's kind of pretty that way.
I think I have reached the steely-cold granite plane of American Nirvana.
-Damaged