its been a while

[sonoflucifer]

ah addiction--
in the past ive either failed or picked up a new one

well this time im not going to something clicked
its time to grow up. i am almost 3 month sober,
almost three weeks without a smoke, no other activities
any more.... i started running this morning and thought
i was going to die, that gave me another push. i used to be select
soccer. i was a swimmer, now im luck to walk a flight of stairs and
not colapse... i found a new way to deal with my roomates. i found my balls
and started yelling and telling them what there going to do
instead of being a wuss and walking away...one is moving out
2 months and she has bought food(*not much) and cleans and
then told me she shouldnt have to pay rent
and that she wasnt going to. oops now she is moving out..
i will not be walked on...and instead of sitting on my ass and
doing nothing about the single situation..im going to do something
i should have done along time ago. every one for the mosty part know what
im talking about if you dont there is a reason for that... i just havent told you.
but any way. life is very good and only getting better...