'scuze you?

[sonofdarold]

You know how you're not supposed to drink around or leave booze around recovering alcoholics? I wonder if I can ask my room mates not to leave ice cream and sweets in the fridge. I've gotten really good at not buying the wrong stuff. And at buying small amounts of it when I really want it. I'll buy 1 regular sized candy bar not the 2 king size for $2 or whatever, q single scoop of high quality fresh ice cream in a cup instead of half a gallon of the stuff from the grocery store. I have no self control when it's there in front of me. If I buy 1 small candy bar on the way to Detroit I'll eat it before I've arrived. If I buy 4 king sized candy bars, I'll eat all four before I arrive. I've learned to buy only small amounts and only when I'm really craving it. It's hard having a half gallon of ice cream in the freezer and a giant bag of frozen reese's cups. I'm sitting around the house all alone and my brain says I should just eat it all. I'm lonely and eating it would make me feel better short term. I'm not going to eat it all, but I'd rather it was not around for me to even think about. My blood sugar is within normal levels after 8 months of pills. I don't have to prick my finger or do any crazy diabetic weirdo stuff. I'm hoping to be off the pills eventually. I've lost around 80 lbs since changing my diet. I'd like to lose 20-30 lbs more, but I don't think I can do the rest through just diet alone. I don't have the energy to exercise when I'm working 60-90 hour weeks. Plus I hate exercise. It's not like I want to do it when I'm working normal hours. I'd rather not go back to crazy high blood sugar levels by starting to eat nothing but high sugar, high carb, highly processed foods without any control again. I don't want to die eating tubs of ice cream because I'm lonely.

I started watching Rescue Me less than two weeks ago. I'm on Season 6 now. My time in Lansing is spent working on football stuff, sleeping a little, and watching Netflix in-between.