occupation of love
Last night i had a verry bad scear. and yet it made me more awear of how what i do can affect people. There is this guy that treats me so grate..and for that reason i feel not all guys are cheeting, back stabing scum bags!
Last night i went to his house and we were going to work on stuff and do other things but i was told i had to leave ... after only being there a half a houre..But anyway, b4 i left i offered to call him and he is like no>> and i say why not we have stayed up all houres talking b4(* the reason for talking is i feel he listens and he allways makes me feel better) and he not trying to sound rude said (( BUT that is when i wanted to talk to you** with the day ihad that allready mad me feel like shit!..But that was the begining of it..
On the way home from his house i called my friend and she instilled in me that he said he wanted to push me away cuz he did not want anyone to like him cuz he was going to be leaveing at the end of the school year. (this pissed me off) Becouse it Made me think of the past, and rethink eveything i thought about this person for the fact i thought he would never lie to me.
Most to all of my friends have eather goten close to me and pushed me away or just left me. And for that reason i thought that history was just repeating it self and i could not think anything but.. Why???? ,A cupple night b4 we talked about it and it seemed fine. My friend was like ... he just dose not want to hurt u be letting u get to close...! ...I understud why he would say that .. just , that to me to only way he could hurt me was by pushing me away and not wanting to be there for me!
I mean he is the kind of person a Girl/Guy waits his whole life to find. For the reason i can tell him anything and he understands or trys to understand and we are not affaid to be intamit b.c that would not ruin are friend ship.. well anyway .. we talked it out and came to the conclushion.. we both know how we feel.. and we will love each other no matter what, nuthing will ever change that Even when he gose back to his own country i will always remenber him...I just want to thank god everyday for sending me him even if it is for a short while.. for he has instilled me hope in humanity once agen!
live long and prosper
Kacey
Last night i went to his house and we were going to work on stuff and do other things but i was told i had to leave ... after only being there a half a houre..But anyway, b4 i left i offered to call him and he is like no>> and i say why not we have stayed up all houres talking b4(* the reason for talking is i feel he listens and he allways makes me feel better) and he not trying to sound rude said (( BUT that is when i wanted to talk to you** with the day ihad that allready mad me feel like shit!..But that was the begining of it..
On the way home from his house i called my friend and she instilled in me that he said he wanted to push me away cuz he did not want anyone to like him cuz he was going to be leaveing at the end of the school year. (this pissed me off) Becouse it Made me think of the past, and rethink eveything i thought about this person for the fact i thought he would never lie to me.
Most to all of my friends have eather goten close to me and pushed me away or just left me. And for that reason i thought that history was just repeating it self and i could not think anything but.. Why???? ,A cupple night b4 we talked about it and it seemed fine. My friend was like ... he just dose not want to hurt u be letting u get to close...! ...I understud why he would say that .. just , that to me to only way he could hurt me was by pushing me away and not wanting to be there for me!
I mean he is the kind of person a Girl/Guy waits his whole life to find. For the reason i can tell him anything and he understands or trys to understand and we are not affaid to be intamit b.c that would not ruin are friend ship.. well anyway .. we talked it out and came to the conclushion.. we both know how we feel.. and we will love each other no matter what, nuthing will ever change that Even when he gose back to his own country i will always remenber him...I just want to thank god everyday for sending me him even if it is for a short while.. for he has instilled me hope in humanity once agen!
live long and prosper
Kacey