Gone?
ever just woke up one morning and relized somone that was realy inportent to u is no longer in your life... well it has not happened to me yet and allready cry in dread of that day... for i will strugle the week he is gone.. how will i let the first guy i ever let into my heart, truly as a friend and more when he leaves back to his country?
For me i will not only be losing a good friend that has tuched my heart and warmed my soul from the first time i met him but a love i will ether never find agen or have trubles exepting for i will not want to replace him.. in all i am afraid he will go back to his friends and forget about everything he has learned, gone threw, the people he met and the things he did!
we will merly be shadows in the memorys of his past.. i dont think he is like that but my fear overcomes me!
So till that day comes when i role over and relize wow he is gone for good, no more singing britny with him, no more tickly fights, no more smiles and talks about the "rope or life". Am i to be weary of what is to come and not lose my slef anymore,, or is it truly better to love and to lost then to not love at all..
all the trubling questions in my mind right now lead me to beleave everything i hold dear to me now,,, not only this person but all peoples and belongings that i love so tenderly ... i will relize and find missing in the fucher when i need them.
How can one question from a sarcastice friend spane such inconclusive ansers and hopes and fales dreams that some day i will see all the people i lost wonce agen , when we are still alive and not in the vast eleshion feilds above?
I hope to find ansers were i beleave no ansers are yet to be found.. ahh.. the hard ships of someone that thinking only brings them closer to death and insanity all the same..
(lost in the confushion)
Kacey
For me i will not only be losing a good friend that has tuched my heart and warmed my soul from the first time i met him but a love i will ether never find agen or have trubles exepting for i will not want to replace him.. in all i am afraid he will go back to his friends and forget about everything he has learned, gone threw, the people he met and the things he did!
we will merly be shadows in the memorys of his past.. i dont think he is like that but my fear overcomes me!
So till that day comes when i role over and relize wow he is gone for good, no more singing britny with him, no more tickly fights, no more smiles and talks about the "rope or life". Am i to be weary of what is to come and not lose my slef anymore,, or is it truly better to love and to lost then to not love at all..
all the trubling questions in my mind right now lead me to beleave everything i hold dear to me now,,, not only this person but all peoples and belongings that i love so tenderly ... i will relize and find missing in the fucher when i need them.
How can one question from a sarcastice friend spane such inconclusive ansers and hopes and fales dreams that some day i will see all the people i lost wonce agen , when we are still alive and not in the vast eleshion feilds above?
I hope to find ansers were i beleave no ansers are yet to be found.. ahh.. the hard ships of someone that thinking only brings them closer to death and insanity all the same..
(lost in the confushion)
Kacey