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Everything nice you ever said to me meant nothing.
And I don't mean that in a hateful way, but I have such low self esteem I thought you were being overly nice. But maybe you were right. I probably should focus on my better features.
I don't know how I feel about opening an entry that way, or how other people who may be reading this are supposed to interpret it. Well, it's not really meant to be interpreted, but rather for me to get it out. Say it in words, not keep it cooped up in my head. It only grows moldy there, and no one likes the presence of mold.
I can't seem to get away from myself, if that makes sense. Well, what I mean is I can't really change myself in the way I would like to... although I've got a great start going, I don't think it will be enough. Man, this is probably confusing. I'm confusing myself now. Remember when I said I had a hard time getting my thoughts on paper? I was talking to Megan about this last night... I have profound thoughts almost constantly, but when I go to put them into words, they come out completly fucked up. So I've learned to keep quiet in most instances, and as a result I just end up looking unintelligent or just really quiet.
It's all coming together, though... I think. Today has been one of my better days in months. I think it's the haircut. People are so much friendlier to you when you decide to look cute.
And I don't mean that in a hateful way, but I have such low self esteem I thought you were being overly nice. But maybe you were right. I probably should focus on my better features.
I don't know how I feel about opening an entry that way, or how other people who may be reading this are supposed to interpret it. Well, it's not really meant to be interpreted, but rather for me to get it out. Say it in words, not keep it cooped up in my head. It only grows moldy there, and no one likes the presence of mold.
I can't seem to get away from myself, if that makes sense. Well, what I mean is I can't really change myself in the way I would like to... although I've got a great start going, I don't think it will be enough. Man, this is probably confusing. I'm confusing myself now. Remember when I said I had a hard time getting my thoughts on paper? I was talking to Megan about this last night... I have profound thoughts almost constantly, but when I go to put them into words, they come out completly fucked up. So I've learned to keep quiet in most instances, and as a result I just end up looking unintelligent or just really quiet.
It's all coming together, though... I think. Today has been one of my better days in months. I think it's the haircut. People are so much friendlier to you when you decide to look cute.