Ummmmmmm
After many tears
I have explained my situation to everyone that I felt needed to know.
Now that it's all out in the open things are better...
WAY better.
It's impossibly hard to let go of things when there is still so much in your head that needs to be said and needs to get the hell out of there.
There has been many reasons for the way I've been the last few days...soooo many.
I've kinda had to pick and choose what things I tell what people. It's the truth, I just omit things sometimes...so I guess maybe everything isn't out to everyone...but nothing has been left untold.
Besides, if I explained everything, then I would be at risk of being figured out by someone...and we certainly don't want that, do we? I prefer to remain a mystery. Besides, any time I try to let someone in to help figure me out, they either end up frustrated and confused, or hating me....or both, as the recent events have shown.
Not my loss.
Seems like everybody wants what they can't have... and that's why I end up in tears. When somebody finally has me...and I mean all of me, they decide that it's no longer what they want. Go figure.
So last night was marvelous...
(well, not the whole night, but a lot of it).
Anyways, Calise is now a mess and is going into the program. Lovely. I'm glad she made a decision even though I would personally rather work on finding why I do drugs than work forever to stay away from them and still not know what makes me want them....if I were her...
Nikki called me last night drunk as hell. She was at On The Border with Mandi...and was on her way to Scooters with Billy. Good God. I'm worried as hell, because she's so sweet and innocent and doesn't need to be around someone as messed up as Billy... Who has a cocaine/drinking/sex problem...
Let's not get into the things I have personally experienced and witnessed while in his presence...
Ugh.
Gross.
I hope she's ok.
Don has finals this week, and once again, Mr. Four-Point-Oh has done it. He doesn't even need to pass them.
I'm really happy for him
Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
Never again
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never.
I have explained my situation to everyone that I felt needed to know.
Now that it's all out in the open things are better...
WAY better.
It's impossibly hard to let go of things when there is still so much in your head that needs to be said and needs to get the hell out of there.
There has been many reasons for the way I've been the last few days...soooo many.
I've kinda had to pick and choose what things I tell what people. It's the truth, I just omit things sometimes...so I guess maybe everything isn't out to everyone...but nothing has been left untold.
Besides, if I explained everything, then I would be at risk of being figured out by someone...and we certainly don't want that, do we? I prefer to remain a mystery. Besides, any time I try to let someone in to help figure me out, they either end up frustrated and confused, or hating me....or both, as the recent events have shown.
Not my loss.
Seems like everybody wants what they can't have... and that's why I end up in tears. When somebody finally has me...and I mean all of me, they decide that it's no longer what they want. Go figure.
So last night was marvelous...
(well, not the whole night, but a lot of it).
Anyways, Calise is now a mess and is going into the program. Lovely. I'm glad she made a decision even though I would personally rather work on finding why I do drugs than work forever to stay away from them and still not know what makes me want them....if I were her...
Nikki called me last night drunk as hell. She was at On The Border with Mandi...and was on her way to Scooters with Billy. Good God. I'm worried as hell, because she's so sweet and innocent and doesn't need to be around someone as messed up as Billy... Who has a cocaine/drinking/sex problem...
Let's not get into the things I have personally experienced and witnessed while in his presence...
Ugh.
Gross.
I hope she's ok.
Don has finals this week, and once again, Mr. Four-Point-Oh has done it. He doesn't even need to pass them.
I'm really happy for him
Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
Never again
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never.