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i want her, i feel her getting closer but still shes not nere me. who am i kidding even if i had her i know it would never work. it's funny how no matter how mad someone get over whatever they always seem to get over it. WHY? i understand it's not worth loseing your freinds over an argument but when is it too much, which step is over the line AND WERE THE FUCK DID HER LOYALTY GO. life never gets any easier and girl2 now has a Boyfreind w/e that doesn't bother me i only wanted to fuck anyways. i hope she happy. back to the subject ya i think i'm attraching her with her mind but then SHE comes in and nothing changes. I wish she wasn't around. i wish girls wern't so fucking girly and could keep some shit to themselves. I wish she saw how bad she is for her and how shes only useing her. I thought they wer differnet but there not everyones in it for themselves. no one cares about anything as long as it doens't affect them WERES THE APATHY i know at least 3 people NO MATTER WHAT WILL NEVER LEAVE ME. i dunno maybe they will to someday i'm sick of being sick when does it get better. when does the sunshine come? the same reason i left those people is the same reason i want to leave these people, but then were does that put me ALL ALONE AGAIN or still i guess. if i left would they even care i put my self out so much to help them and make sure that they are ok but do they even care? would they do the same for me? I wonder if they can see the pain or am i too good at covering it up? well i've had somefucking practice so maybe i am that good at least its something im good at.