I'm gonna have to move on, before we meet again..
So like another 100 bucks later going shopping, spending money i dont have, yeah, i feel a little better. retail therapy is highly advisable in times like these.
Tom and I broke up, again. I really don't care if im posting hella personal stuff on here, but like, go away if you don't want to read it.
I'm just not happy with the entire situation. There are too many scars and too many wounds that get torn open over and over when it comes to us. It's too easy for us to lose our tempers and say what we dont mean but do we really not mean them? It's bullshit. Even when you're angry. if you say something, most of the itme you mean it. you just apologize because you feel bad for telling that person the truth. If someone did that to me, or for me, rather, i'd thank them for telling me the truth, tell them to fuck off, and find someone that would put up with me. That's what i'm doing now. I'm not exactly looking, but i have wya to omuch love to give to just spend it alone, or at rehearsal, work, or school. lameness.
Cabaret will be open in less than 2 weeks. I can't wait to just wrap my head around dancing and hanging out with patti and amber because they're really cool and truthful people. Amber is i swear to god the reason i was supposed to join this show. That and to show myself i can still dance after all these years. <3 in that respect, i am proud of myself.
I know i've been completely unavailable lately, with work and yadda yadda, and i'm sorry, everyone. I need to kick my mood swings, too. Social phobia can be a bitch.
I really love my sister. She's been there for me this past week. I'm blessed to have her. xo
back to school tomorrow...im going to spend the rest of the day watching movies and like, not writing reports that have to get done soon.
I wish the seratonin in my brain would choose a happy medium because honestly, these highs and lows wear me out.
but tomorrow is a new day, and life is what you make of it. I can save myself, but I can't save you. I'm sorry baby.
and now, the song that made me cry whlie driving today, haha:
Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives.
Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love's game
You would call; I'd call you back
And then I'd leave
A message
On your answering machine
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom, freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
Without
A fight
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and the moon
That lights
Up my night
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish that I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill
We hang around
Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up
All the time I've falling down
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
<3 bye, everybody.
Holls
Tom and I broke up, again. I really don't care if im posting hella personal stuff on here, but like, go away if you don't want to read it.
I'm just not happy with the entire situation. There are too many scars and too many wounds that get torn open over and over when it comes to us. It's too easy for us to lose our tempers and say what we dont mean but do we really not mean them? It's bullshit. Even when you're angry. if you say something, most of the itme you mean it. you just apologize because you feel bad for telling that person the truth. If someone did that to me, or for me, rather, i'd thank them for telling me the truth, tell them to fuck off, and find someone that would put up with me. That's what i'm doing now. I'm not exactly looking, but i have wya to omuch love to give to just spend it alone, or at rehearsal, work, or school. lameness.
Cabaret will be open in less than 2 weeks. I can't wait to just wrap my head around dancing and hanging out with patti and amber because they're really cool and truthful people. Amber is i swear to god the reason i was supposed to join this show. That and to show myself i can still dance after all these years. <3 in that respect, i am proud of myself.
I know i've been completely unavailable lately, with work and yadda yadda, and i'm sorry, everyone. I need to kick my mood swings, too. Social phobia can be a bitch.
I really love my sister. She's been there for me this past week. I'm blessed to have her. xo
back to school tomorrow...im going to spend the rest of the day watching movies and like, not writing reports that have to get done soon.
I wish the seratonin in my brain would choose a happy medium because honestly, these highs and lows wear me out.
but tomorrow is a new day, and life is what you make of it. I can save myself, but I can't save you. I'm sorry baby.
and now, the song that made me cry whlie driving today, haha:
Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives.
Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love's game
You would call; I'd call you back
And then I'd leave
A message
On your answering machine
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom, freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
Without
A fight
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and the moon
That lights
Up my night
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish that I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill
We hang around
Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up
All the time I've falling down
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
<3 bye, everybody.
Holls