peace and love
i am off to class shortly and then it is time for me to sit and study- i have a huge test tomorrow and an interview to do- i forgot to go into my teachers office this morning and get my last test grade, so i have no idea what i need to make to get an a, or if i even already have one- most likely i don't- so i need to study really hard for this one
i just needed to write- i can barely talk about what i did today- i can't believe what i did- but now everything is great- having some balls can really be helpful sometimes- instead of just waiting for some resolution to come on its own- hard when we are both so quiet to begin with- it took a little while- but now things are all worked out and i can look forward to tomorrow and my outing with Isaac and look forward to Saturday and my evening with Paul- good times- i really should just try to be happy at this moment- for what i have now- not what i am going to loose in a few months- we will deal with it when the time comes- if that time comes- caty says they all fall- I dunno- things do happen for a reason- but maybe we will both change through this- maybe I should shift my focus elsewhere- so it’s good that I am going out tomorrow
anyways I know that was obscure- I just can’t articulate anything- and some things should be left off of this page anyways- things are good- I am dealing well- I will stop worrying so much- I hope I can stop worrying so much- chill, relax, and take one day at a time- I am thankful for each day- and everything that each day brings, but my realism and pessimism don’t help much- my mom’s worrying and my dad’s looking ahead into the future all came down on me- I’ve got it just like them- and I just have to deal with it- that is just how I am
I don’t want to go to class- I just want to sit and read- but I should go- I should- but will it? I could read and then study-hmmmm…..study vs. class that I really don’t like and don’t want to go to- I must consult the judges
Peace and love
(yes I guess I must say it sometime)
i just needed to write- i can barely talk about what i did today- i can't believe what i did- but now everything is great- having some balls can really be helpful sometimes- instead of just waiting for some resolution to come on its own- hard when we are both so quiet to begin with- it took a little while- but now things are all worked out and i can look forward to tomorrow and my outing with Isaac and look forward to Saturday and my evening with Paul- good times- i really should just try to be happy at this moment- for what i have now- not what i am going to loose in a few months- we will deal with it when the time comes- if that time comes- caty says they all fall- I dunno- things do happen for a reason- but maybe we will both change through this- maybe I should shift my focus elsewhere- so it’s good that I am going out tomorrow
anyways I know that was obscure- I just can’t articulate anything- and some things should be left off of this page anyways- things are good- I am dealing well- I will stop worrying so much- I hope I can stop worrying so much- chill, relax, and take one day at a time- I am thankful for each day- and everything that each day brings, but my realism and pessimism don’t help much- my mom’s worrying and my dad’s looking ahead into the future all came down on me- I’ve got it just like them- and I just have to deal with it- that is just how I am
I don’t want to go to class- I just want to sit and read- but I should go- I should- but will it? I could read and then study-hmmmm…..study vs. class that I really don’t like and don’t want to go to- I must consult the judges
Peace and love
(yes I guess I must say it sometime)